Taurus North Node people are not allowed to rely on others for
success in this lifetime because they need to learn to rely on
themselves. Thus, when they count on another person’s energy to
create what they want and it doesn’t turn out according to their high
expectations, it’s one more reminder from the universe that they are
not allowed to rely on others for their sense of self-worth. The irony
is that once they learn to rely on themselves, others rally around to
help them reach their goals! Their confidence comes from knowing
that because they built success on their own, step by step, no one
can take it away.
When Taurus North Node people look to others to acknowledge
that they have power, they won’t feel like they have any. When they
realize that their power is within them, they have a lot. Part of
claiming their power involves understanding their own value. They
don’t have to work to become something valuable; their value is
inherent—who they are is a gift they bring to the planet. Their own
sense of self-worth is the one thing they can hang on to amid the
constant shifting of public opinion. When these folks let others
determine their worth, they are on a roller coaster.
I had a client with this nodal position who was working with
endangered species. She had to bring a change of clothes each day,
because in handling the animals her clothing would become soiled
and smelly. One day she forgot her other clothes and had to wear
her work clothes home, and she had to bring a caged animal with
her that day. As she waited to catch the ferry boat, she noticed that
other people gave her a wide berth and treated her with disdain.
Then a friend who was in the new car business and needed to
transport three autos on the ferry asked if she would drive one of
them on board. When she climbed into a brand-new Lincoln
Continental, she noticed that the attitude of the people on the ferry
shifted: They were friendly, smiling and waving to her. Yet her
worth (who she was inside) stayed the same. She could recognize
how invalid it is to let other people determine her worth.
In this incarnation, the most important goal for Taurus North
Node people is to pledge themselves to their own values and build a
sense of self-worth. They are learning that they can’t establish selfworth by going along with others’ values to gain validation, nor can
they attain self-worth through resisting others’ values. Either way,
they lose. They win when they discover what is truly important and
precious to them: their own values. Self-worth will come as a byproduct of living according to those values.
They recognize the truth of this but may still feel lost when it
comes to knowing what their values are. And that’s fine. They have
a clean slate—a unique opportunity to get in touch with what is in
the deepest level of their souls. The idea is to consciously discover
what is important to them; what values give them a sense of being
grounded, confident, and able to face the world without anxiety.
They need to ask themselves: “What principles can I live by that
will make me feel good about myself, give me a sense of my own
self-worth, and give me a solid path to follow?”
For example, if Taurus North Node people decide that honesty in
communication is a value for them, they need to begin letting others
know when they feel uncomfortable. If they decide that starting
their own business is important, they can begin systematically
allotting time to it. These folks have discipline, once they’re clear
about their direction. As they travel through life, if they are
uncertain about which road to take they can ask themselves: “Would
taking this action make me feel good about myself, regardless of the
consequence in the outer world?” If the answer is yes, they can
proceed with confidence.
To further discriminate, they can ask themselves: “Does choosing
this direction make me feel comfortable, or anxious?” When they
choose to move in alignment with their comfort zone, they win; if
they opt for anxiety with no safety net, they lose. “Is this path
leading to inner peace, or will it create more crisis?” Inner peace
will lead to victory for them. “Is my motive self-validation, or to
gain the validation of others?” Those pathways that validate the
principles they think are inherently valuable and that give them a
sense of self-esteem help them win.
Taurus North Node people are so accustomed to empowering
others that they have forgotten how to empower themselves. In this
lifetime, their challenge is to turn the spotlight around and make
themselves powerful. They can discover how to do this by noticing
what they do that empowers others, and then applying those same
tactics to themselves. For example, they sense what the other person
really wants and encourage him or her to go after it. They add to
what is inherent in the other person. Thus, turning it around, what
project or direction gives them energy? What do they want to build?
Once they know what it is, they need to feed themselves support
and encouragement.
This is a lifetime to take their power back, to use it for
themselves rather than giving it away or sharing it in ways that are
not responsible to themselves. For example, if they spend their
energy on charitable projects when they have trouble coming up
with the mortgage payment each month, that’s furthering the cause
of another without first providing a secure financial base for
themselves.
These folks are learning not to waste energy, whether in the form
of time, money, or personal talents. They are learning to use their
resources consciously. It’s very easy to divert their energy away
from building comfort and security. They may even distract
themselves, spending time doing anything else, because they don’t
feel confident in doing things to fill their own needs. Yet when they
approach it on a practical level and proceed step by step toward
their goal, they gain self-assurance.
Taurus North Node people tend to be unwilling to give 100
percent of themselves. They hold back because they are afraid of
failure and don’t want to further undermine their sense of selfworth. Actually, if they do give 100 percent and don’t attain their
goal, they still feel good about themselves because they know they
did their best. But when they hold back and fail, they’re never sure:
“If I really had done my best, would I have succeeded?” and that
does undermine their self-confidence.
Sometimes the best thing that can happen to these folks is to
encounter a situation in which they are forced to do their best. When
it’s all or nothing and they’re forced to open up the valve all the
way, that’s when they truly get in touch with their own power. And
tremendous self-worth is born from it.
Taurus North Node people are learning to recognize their own
power—that it comes from within and is not dependent on anyone
else. The idea is for them to do things that allow the power within to
come forth naturally. Devoting time to projects that make money for
them or provide comfort or security is empowering for them. They
gain power when they have the courage to walk through difficult
times and experience a positive outcome. They gain power when
they communicate what is truly important to them, regardless of
others’ opinions, and see the situation turn out well. When they step
outside of society’s values and get in touch with their own values,
they find their power every time they are true to themselves.
Taurus North Node people are the master builders. Once they
learn how to take their time, work out each step so that it’s solid,
and not move faster than what feels comfortable, the things they
build will last forever.
These folks’ past lives revolved around the projects of others, so
in this incarnation they are learning to make the decisions and steer
the project. The strength required to see the project through will
come from being clear about their purpose. If, with each step they
take, they clarify their purpose (“What is my purpose in making this
call? In having this meeting?”), it will help focus their direction and
they will make steady progress.
One of their first jobs is to find a project that makes them secure
and happy. If it’s a financial project, their strength will be in seeing
a public need and figuring out what they can do to fill the need that
will also make money for themselves. Then, because it’s their
project, when they take responsibility their energy soars. And the
energy that comes from success nurtures them and creates a positive
feedback loop that helps them remain clear about their purpose and
focused on their goal.
Owing to so many past lives of empowering others at the expense
of their own self-worth, Taurus North Node people can be skittish
about allowing the ideas of others into their world. But the fact is
that now the tables are reversed: In this lifetime, after they have
chosen their goal, they are supposed to allow others to help them.
They tend to make the process of success unnecessarily hard on
themselves. They think others are supposed to give them
everything, support them, and take care of all their material needs;
or they have to do everything on their own without any help. This
“all or nothing” approach is neither accurate nor practical.
It is true that Taurus North Nodes need to earn their own success.
However, once they have decided on a goal and are willing to put
forth the effort to get there, step by step, then it is fully appropriate
for other people to support them, empower them, and help them
reach the goal. Others can make their route easier by opening up
opportunities, pointing out pitfalls, broadening their approach, and
helping them cover their bases in a practical way.
They shouldn’t rely on the help of others, but they need to learn
to accept it when it is freely offered.
When Taurus North Node people see how far they have to go to
reach their goal, they panic. All the work involved, the hurdles to
overcome—how can they ever get there? So they pull back from
their larger goals owing to fear of failure. It all seems too
overwhelming.
Seen from their point of view, it would feel overwhelming to
anyone! The only way long-range goals are reached is by breaking
the process into individual steps. The idea of being a doctor is
intimidating to a high school student. And yet, if that is a true
dream, it’s worth working through the hurdles. First the aspiring
physician has to complete a four-year college education, then four
years of medical school, then residency. It’s a long process, but it
can be accomplished in stages one step at a time. And the goal will
be reached if each step is completed with total attention.
It’s the same in an important relationship. If these folks meet
someone who “rings their bells,” the idea of reuniting with their
soul mate is so overwhelming that they don’t want to think about it;
they want to jump right into it—and the result is disaster. What they
dreamed of isn’t accomplished because they tried to bypass the
necessary steps. Sometimes when they think about their goal, they
forget that getting there is solely up to them and their willingness to
do the work. They can feel a lot of emotional intensity worrying
about whether they are worthy of the goal.
But this is like looking at a mountain and wondering if they’re
worthy of teaching the summit, when the only thing that can make
them worthy is actually climbing it. If they have the proper
equipment, choose a realistic route relative to their experience and
ability, and are willing to put one foot in front of the other, they’ll
get there.
Taurus North Node people are not accustomed to formulating a
strategy for getting to the goal, since in past lives defining the steps
was the responsibility of another person. Now they are learning to
determine the goal they would like to accomplish (a camping trip
for the family, starting a business, etc.) and to formulate a practical
plan for achieving it. As they take the steps, they’re very efficient
and have a feeling of confidence that “it will work”—and it usually
does as long as they systematically follow the steps.
Even so, it is not always easy for these folks to be clear about
what they want in life. They may need a lot of self-reflection and
soul searching to determine what they want to build. And when they
do decide, it is important that they remember to tune in to their
inner feeling of comfort as a barometer of whether or not a decision
is “on path” for them. Regardless of what their mind tells them, if
they have an inner feeling of discomfort about something and
proceed anyway, they always lose. When they remain true to that
inner sense of what is comfortable (which is a reflection of their
own unique boundaries), everything works to their advantage.
Taurus North Node people need values and ethics to live by, a
path they can walk step by step to achieve serenity. When they find
spiritual principles they resonate with, their best bet is to apply them
on a practical basis in their daily lives. They are much better off
with application rather than theory. For example, 12-step programs
are great for them (Alcoholics Anonymous, Adult Children of
Alcoholics, etc.), as these programs focus on a practical, step-bystep approach to spiritual principles.
To build a solid sense of self-worth, these folks need to follow a
path of doing the “right thing” according to what they feel is
morally correct, rather than “going along” with the values of others.
Their means of guidance may not always be the most pleasant; but
if they follow it, it can lead them out of the dark—being lost
without a sense of integrity and self-worth—into the Light. Shame
or guilt may be an indication that they should re-evaluate their
behavior. Regardless of the opinions of society, they know what
makes them feel good about themselves. When they follow their
own internal guidance system, a solid sense of self-worth is
ensured.
From the charity work they performed in past incarnations,
Taurus North Node people have gained the right to earn personal
wealth in this incarnation. Charity work is natural for them because,
in past lives, other people paid their bills. So they put their energy
into things that were good for the community. However, in this
incarnation it is better for them to pursue activities for which they
are paid, since the process of earning money helps build their selfesteem.
These folks sometimes are too trusting with money. They know
that “trusting the universe” is a principle that works. However, it is
also true that “God helps those who help themselves.” Trusting the
universe does not mean avoiding personal responsibility and doing
irrational things out of blind faith. If a friend says: “Will you loan
me $3,000?” and $3,000 is all Taurus North Node has to cover his
own expenses, “trusting the universe” does not mean thinking:
“Well, I trust the universe, so I’ll just give away my money.”
Taurus North Node people need to accept responsibility for
taking care of their own finances. Only then can they include others
without fear of losing their personal power and self-worth. When
they feel secure, they can trust the universe in a way that empowers
them to see what life is offering.
To accept responsibility in terms of money and open the doors
to personal wealth, Taurus North Node people need to deliberately
begin paying attention to money: writing things down, keeping
track of what they’re spending and where their money is going. This
is empowering: It enables them to channel their money in
meaningful directions. Accumulating money is a game, for which
these folks have a real talent. Once they put their minds to it, they
can make a little money go a long way and can easily become
wealthy.
Sometimes they feel resentful about having to take charge with
money. They are angry about not having the “easier life” they were
accustomed to in past incarnations. Yet it’s healthy when they do
take care of themselves: a steady job, a stable income, a savings
account, and financial plans for the future. The idea is to create a
secure financial base that will allow them to take risks in other
areas. This gives them a feeling of ease and confidence about life
and makes them feel good about themselves.
Although some folks do very well with inherited money, Taurus
North Node people are not in that category. It’s not to their
advantage to be dependent on an inheritance, the financial goodness
of others, or a state or federal assistance program. Any situation in
which they are financially dependent on another debilitates their
sense of self-worth. In this incarnation, it’s crucial that Taurus North
Nodes earn their own money and are paid for their energy.
If they have inherited money, it is in their best interests to use
part of it to start their own business or in some way promote a cause
that builds their sense of self-worth. If they are financially
dependent on a spouse, it is healthy for them to start a small
business of their own or take a job outside the home, even if they
don’t need it or it’s “not much money.” They need to build a sense
of self apart from their connection with another person. Regularly
setting aside blocks of time for working toward an individual goal
or project that is important to them is another way to build their
self-esteem.
If these folks are on a state or federal assistance program, they
can begin taking side jobs to make money. If the Taurus North Node
is a parent with children, perhaps she could start a child care
service. The issue is not how much or how little she makes, but the
sense of self-worth that is gained.
Taurus North Node people have a natural understanding of how
money works and the necessity of circulating money. Their
challenge is to circulate it consciously. Once they start using it to
build with, they can become very wealthy. In past lives they were so
accustomed to using other people’s money that they lost respect for
the value of money; they didn’t have to earn it themselves. In this
lifetime they are learning to respect money and to use it wisely in
ways that help it multiply. Money is their teacher. Once they tap
into their intuition of how money works, money itself will show
them how to make more.
Taurus North Node people may have a problem equating wealth
with debt. I’ve had many clients with this nodal position who
accumulated enormous debt owing to this misunderstanding. For
example, I had one Taurus North Node client who, with her
husband and another couple, started an innovative cosmetics
business. It took off faster than anyone expected, and orders came
in fast and furious! To keep up with the unexpected rush, my client
borrowed against her credit cards to hire more employees, order
more ingredients, and so on—until she had accumulated a debt of
nearly $60,000.
Then there was a falling-out among the partners, the company
collapsed, her marriage ended in divorce, and she was left $60,000
in debt. It took her ten years to pay off the debt. To do it, she lived
in a cheap apartment, allowed herself no luxuries, cut out her social
life, worked two jobs, and endured incredible stress and deprivation.
When the business first got off the ground, my client jeopardized
herself by trying to respond instantly to an outside demand. She
could have allowed the universe to unfold the business organically,
using the profits to expand the business from its modest beginnings.
I had another Taurus North Node client who wanted to make
films showing New Age encounter groups—especially those
dealing with the emergence of new feminine and masculine roles in
our society. She thought the films had a noble mission, and she
“trusted the universe” to provide money for the project. She
borrowed money (thereby accumulating an enormous debt) to make
these films.
My client trusted that the money would be there because “the
universe wanted the project to succeed.” Her life became total chaos
trying to raise more money, do the project, and come up with “delay
tactics” in paying back the money she had already borrowed.
Eventually the entire undertaking collapsed and she had to declare
bankruptcy—for the second time in her life. This time, not only
were the financial institutions hurt but friends and family who had
loaned her money as well.
The accumulation of debt does not work for Taurus North Node
people. They are master builders when they use common sense and
don’t take “leaps of faith” or try high-wire maneuvers without a
safety net. But in some ways they don’t respect money and tend to
be careless about it. Although they don’t think about it much on a
conscious level, they have a lot of fears around money owing to
lack of experience in providing for themselves financially in past
lives.
Once these folks realize they have to deliberately be more
conscious about money, they accept the responsibility. However,
sometimes they lose control and go on a spending spree—buying
something they don’t need that they have to pay for later. In past
lives, money was a tool for distraction. Thus, in this lifetime when
they get bored they may have the urge to go shopping, with the
subconscious feeling that they deserve it and someone else will pay.
Rationally they know this is not true, but they almost can’t help
themselves.
Taurus North Node people can’t stand feeling restricted
financially. Yet the irony is that once they put their nose to the
grindstone and accept responsibility for earning and budgeting, they
can easily accrue the kind of wealth that will allow them to spend
without worry. But once they have made it, they need to continue to
be responsible about handling it—they are not allowed to be
“unconscious” about money in this lifetime.