Pisces North Node people spent many past lifetimes as physical
healers and helpers: They were the surgeons, doctors, and nurses in
many different cultures. These were critical positions where they
had to focus and “do it right,” because a person’s life depended on
it. Thus, there’s a lot of attachment to and a sense of urgency about
doing things perfectly in this lifetime. When things go according to
plan, Pisces North Nodes feel confident and strong; everything’s
under control and the “operation” is proceeding successfully. But
when the unexpected occurs, they panic. Subconsciously, they think
when something has gone “wrong,” someone’s going to die.
As medical personnel they had set rules and procedures—there
could be no mistakes. Thus, in this incarnation they carry an
overattachment to doing things in an exacting, flawless way. They
not only burden themselves with this expectation of impeccable
behavior, but they tend to apply the same rigid standards to those
around them, especially in the workplace. Perhaps because of their
past lives in the medical field, they are often very health-conscious,
have a fear of contamination, and feel a need to keep their
environment spotlessly clean.
Additionally, Pisces North Node people have had past
incarnations representing spiritual truth by being of practical service
in the world through perfect, “by the book” behavior—as monks,
nuns, and “Mother Teresa”-type people. They were role models;
others looked to them to learn how spiritual people should behave.
Because their behavior resulted in admiration and rewards, they
have a subconscious association between being “perfect” and
having things in the material world go their way. However, in those
past lives they got “stuck” on the perfection of form and lost touch
with the essence of their healing power. This is understandable
because they had to perform rituals and always dress and act in a
certain way. Thus, in this lifetime they want to release attachment to
form and get back in touch with essence. It’s time for them to claim
the rewards of peace and inner contentment for their past-life
service.
In past lives, Pisces North Nodes’ analytical processes were
overused and overdeveloped, so now they are born with a
propensity to analyze everything. They are constantly pulling things
apart to see how they work, and they tend to be dissatisfied until
they understand. Their mental processes are in high gear all the
time, often analyzing things that should be left alone. Like peeling
an onion, they take off layer after layer until there’s nothing left—
and then they end up feeling empty and anxious. This lifetime, it’s
not set up for them to find the answers they are seeking through
analysis.
These folks analyze problems from every possible direction with
an intensity that drives the other nodal types crazy! They think of all
the things that could go wrong—things they can’t control. Once
they decide there’s something to worry about, it puts them in an
intense, frantic state that, when activated, is very hard to disengage.
It isn’t the present that worries them so much as what might happen
in the future. The overwhelming majority of their worries never
materialize, but that doesn’t stop these folks from living in a
continual state of anxiety.
There are several reasons why their projected “worse-case
scenarios” are unlikely to happen: (1) They don’t consider new
insights or actions that can circumvent the feared outcome; (2) they
don’t allow for outside intervention; and (3) most important, they
don’t allow their intuition to provide an accurate “sense” of the
future—whether there is actually something to be concerned about.
They have to stop thinking in order to tune in and “feel” the future.
Many problems arise for Pisces North Node people because of
their tendency to overanalyze. For example, they have a vision and
then try to force it into manifestation without allowing the universe
to unfold it in its own way. They do see a path, but it’s not
necessarily the whole road; it may be just a narrow trail. Perhaps
one person can go that way, but when there are others involved it
requires a larger vision.
These folks are so accustomed to implementing that they become
too narrowly focused on the task at hand and don’t take other
circumstances into account. Their best bet—when things stop
working according to their plan—is to step back. Rather than panic,
they need to remind themselves that a higher plan may be unfolding
of which they are unaware.
Owing to past lives spent creating order in situations of chaos,
these folks are born with the feeling that they are always supposed
to have the answers. So they constantly seek ways to create healing
and restore order—both for themselves and others. When they are
faced with a problem, they begin to tense up and try to figure out
the answer—then the situation worsens and so does their anxiety. It
can take days to get over their feelings of inadequacy at not being
able to find the “right answer.”
The irony is that these people do have access to the answers, but
only when they first acknowledge that, all on their own, they don’t
have the answers. They must surrender the problem to a Higher
Power and be open to insights that come through their intuitive
process, not their analytical process. Then the “right” answers do
come, either in the form of an insight or through a general sense of
well-being in the situation.
For example, I had a Pisces North Node client who, after years of
study in Europe, was highly schooled in traditional techniques for
teaching people how to sing. But when she applied these techniques
to her students, the results were frustrating and time-consuming.
Only when she began to relax and allow their individual vocal
dysfunctions to permeate her being, releasing “the problem” to a
Higher Power, was she able to intuitively see how to communicate
the exact perspective that each person needed to unblock his or her
voice. Ironically, by not feeling pressured to immediately know “the
answer,” she found that part of her subconscious did know the
answer and that she did have a true gift for developing her students’
voices.
Pisces North Node people are always trying to figure out where
they “belong”: where their slot is, what their job is, how they fit in
with everyone else. This pressing urge is based on an inner feeling
that they have no value apart from their job or duty; and the idea of
not being defined is terrifying for them.
What they are looking for (the ultimate security) is where they
“fit” within themselves. Until they recognize this, they spend time
and energy in a futile search, because in this incarnation they are
not scheduled to fit in a tangible position. To feel their “fit,” they
must access the spiritual dimension of life; this is where meditation,
relaxation techniques, yoga, and spiritual pursuits are so valuable.
These practices focus attention on the intangible context within
which all tangible, material things exist.
Focusing on the spiritual atmosphere behind what is happening in
the material world gives Pisces North Node people a comfortable
and secure sense of being connected with others and helps them
expand their vision to include a larger awareness—a sense of the
wholeness of everything that transpires. As they experience
wholeness and serenity within themselves, they will grow more
aware of the atmosphere they create. By learning to identify with
their own energy field, they will be able to “fit into” the atmosphere
surrounding them wherever they go.
Pisces North Node people have had so many lifetimes of
needing to be “perfect” that they came into this incarnation with a
“be perfect” script embedded in their subconscious. They think they
have to be “Mr. or Ms. Perfect” all the time. The good news is that
in this lifetime, it’s fine for them to make mistakes. In fact, they are
not allowed to be perfect—a “glitch” always arises at the last
minute to upset their “perfect” image. This is the universe
reminding them that in this lifetime it’s okay to make mistakes, to
be human, and to be themselves.
These folks are really into planning. They focus on where they
want to go and structure exactly how they will get there. Then,
because in past lives they were so accustomed to keeping their eye
on details, they become fixated on the plan and lose sight of the
vision! The slightest alteration of their plan makes them “go
ballistic,” because they think they’re not going to get what they
want.
They think that if they do everything “just right” they can keep
their world under control. They are shocked when, in spite of their
attention to detail, their world starts to fall apart (the wife leaves,
the business fails, a child begins acting out, etc.). Just when they get
their plans all “set,” life sends in something from left field to shake
everything up. This is the universe’s way of letting them know that
when they get too rigidly attached to their method for reaching their
goal, it won’t work—because they’re excluding themselves from
the fun and adventure of unexpected things happening along the
way. When they have their mind set on exactly what they want, the
best that can happen is limited by their own preconceived ideas.
For example, a Pisces North Node person and a friend may want
to go from New York to Los Angeles. Pisces North Node will
probably plan out the entire route in a specific way that is direct and
practical. When they start out, the friend looks ahead, sees that a
blizzard is predicted to cross their route, and suggests taking a route
that will bypass the storm. Pisces North Node is likely to become
upset: She is totally attached to her plan and fears that if they don’t
follow that precise route they may never reach Los Angeles.
These folks also have a tendency to overplan, pressing
themselves to get a lot done in a short period of time. However, the
solution does not lie in structuring their time to accommodate all
their activities, but in totally unstructuring it—just observing
themselves in action. This approach will create a natural, proper
distribution of time that brings ease and balance to their lives.
One thing Pisces North Node people can do to encourage this
process is to consciously do less: Plan less, schedule less, and allow
for more spontaneity. In this way they can best stay in touch with
their vision, which will lead to a more productive use of their time.
They need a stronger sense of purpose and a more relaxed idea of
how to get there. If they allow everything to flow, it leads them to
an inner certainty, a knowing that things will go well for them.
Pisces North Node people tend to be excessively judgmental.
They are harder on themselves than anyone else, and this constant
judging of “right or wrong” results in tension and guilt. They feel
responsible for anything that goes “wrong” in their environment,
including what happens to the people they are close to. They feel
they personally caused the problems because their behavior wasn’t
perfect. This can lead to paralysis in making constructive changes in
their lives, for fear of causing problems for others.
These folks have a tendency to blame themselves for little things
that don’t meet their self-imposed image. They hate to be wrong,
and when they make a mistake they are hard on themselves. They
want to analyze it, rationalize why they did it, and explain
themselves. It can be very difficult for them to say: “I’m sorry, I
made a mistake.” Owing to their past-life perfectionism, they carry
a subconscious fear of behaving in a way that reflects badly on the
ideal they represent. Thus, in this life “being right” almost feels like
a sacred obligation.
The irony is that when they admit they’ve made a mistake, they
gain the position of strength because they are standing in Truth.
Then they can just say: “I’ve made a mistake, and where do we go
from here?” When these folks beat themselves up in their effort to
be perfect, they lose and everyone around them loses. They must
give up all judgments in order to gain the peace they seek.
Whenever they hear themselves say: “I caused that because I
didn’t do a good job,” they know they are plugging in to their pastlife Achilles’ heel. Whenever they start judging themselves—or
someone else—against an ideal, they’re off path. The universe is
teaching them humility by putting them in situations where they
“goof up,” so that they can let go of the need to be perfect and get
over the idea that “something is wrong.” Nothing is wrong;
everything is just “happening.” When they realize this and go with
the Flow of life, they are on the right path. Then they are in a
position to heal through their own confidence in the natural
unfolding of events.
Pisces North Node people are extremely serious because they’re
always focused on what is wrong so they can fix it. They are so
hyper-aware that when there’s any deviation from “smooth,
uninterrupted flow,” they panic and their critical, anxious mood
upsets and disrupts everyone around them.
Their past-life work gave them a very narrow focus, and in this
life they also tend to become focused in a narrow way. Part of the
problem has to do with where they put their attention: on the details
of what is happening on the tangible level. Many times, Pisces
North Node people become fixated on a problem because they are
so close to it they can’t see anything else. They’re like a child with
his face pressed against the glass. When they get “stuck” in the
middle of a problem in this way, feeling frustrated and ineffective
because they are unable to restore order, they can easily become
obsessed with some detail that seems to be “out of place.” This can
lead to a state of tension and worry that is difficult to shake—like
trying to separate a dog from his bone!
Ironically, the way out of this dilemma is also found in their
ability to focus: They need to shift focus from the mechanics of the
problem, to releasing the situation to a Higher Power. In this
incarnation, when they get attached to results in the physical world,
they are overcome with nervous irritability that affects their
relationships and everything they do. They get so tense that it
almost turns their stomach into a knot. When they feel that
tightening in the stomach, it’s a signal to step back from the
situation and let it go.
Sometimes the best way to detach themselves is to say the
affirmation: “All is well, and everything is unfolding as it should.”
They may need to say it several times in order to cease
overanalyzing the situation and to get the psychological distance
they need. Then they can pause and see what comes to them. They
don’t have to figure anything out; they just need to see what comes.
By surrendering the problem to a Higher Power and just being in
the situation, the healing energy emerges and the proper resolution
is revealed to everyone involved.
For example, I had a Pisces North Node client whose mother-inlaw was quite abusive. She became defensive and took it personally
if my client didn’t come to visit. She had a problem with alcohol
and generally made those around her feel badly about wanting to
lead their own lives. For many years my client tried to help this
woman to feel better, but she got nowhere. Then suddenly, when
she stopped helping, her mother-in-law told her that she had begun
seeing a therapist and would like it if each family member would go
with her as part of her treatment. My client was thrilled and totally
supported her mother-in-law. Her biggest surprise was that it didn’t
happen until she accepted the situation as it was, stopped trying to
help, and released it: “I didn’t do a thing.” she said.
Magical results happen when these people truly release a problem
and get out of the way. They think the world depends on their
participation and are surprised when they don’t participate and
things get done anyway. When things do fall into place without their
intervention, they may take it personally: “You mean they can get
along without me?”
Pisces North Node people often have a problem with obsessions
—compulsive mental patterns that are not in their best interest. Or
their minds can have an obsessive quality that causes them to
continue to analyze a situation but fail to come up with a resolution
that brings peace of mind. Sometimes, out of the blue, the problem
or the addiction will be lifted. Their best bet is to not analyze why,
but to simply recognize that the problem is gone and to consciously
express feelings of appreciation and gratitude. They need to accept
the gift, not analyze it.
When they obsess on “why,” they are actually driven by fear that
the problem might return. But in the process of analyzing it, they
often re-attract the problem. Their best bet is to simply allow
negative conditions to disappear from their lives without having to
understand “why.” They are learning to appreciate the wonder of
life, to recognize how everything flows together and to feel a sense
of awe at the solutions that life itself brings to them.
In past lives these folks developed an ego encrustation that
revolved around being “right” all the time. Doctors and surgeons
are like gods: Everyone reveres them, and it’s easy for them to buy
into their own publicity. Then the process of serving other people
becomes an ego trip.
So Pisces North Node people often come into this incarnation
with a superiority complex. They feel they have to be a role model
(teacher, minister, firefighter, police officer, etc.) because, in one
way or another, they represent an archetype that needs to bring a
certain value to the human stream of experience. As a role model
they feel they have to be impeccable. Yet to do things perfectly
implies superiority, and this is the beginning of the end for these
folks. This is true both in terms of being trapped by the role they are
playing and in terms of abusing power in ways that result in others
taking a stand against them.
These folks identify strongly with the work or service they
perform. They may become immersed in work and be unable to
separate themselves from it. What begins as noticing “one more
detail” before leaving their job soon becomes the workaholic
syndrome. Although their job enslaves them, they may not see
themselves as being obsessive—they’re “just doing what has to be
done.” They must let go of identifying with their work; then they
can do a good job without losing so much of themselves. Even if
they are not spending lots of hours on the job, they may spend a lot
of time worrying about work. Either way, work is a central, allpervasive issue in their lives.
They also have a tough time with employees or co-workers. It’s
hard for them to let go of wanting to control others’ behavior—
they’re not sure others can do the job. Pisces North Node people are
learning that their idea of the “right way” to do a job might be
different from the other person’s idea, yet both ways might produce
good results. They need to give people the latitude to have different
styles. They also need to recognize that others may be learning
“how to get the job done”—they can’t expect everyone to already
know the best way.
These folks feel they have to stay apart from others because they
have a certain duty to perform on the earth. They are afraid that if
they let themselves be equal and become emotionally involved they
might forget their job, and that would strip away their selfdefinition. To play out their role they have to keep the mask on,
because to let go of the mask and yield to their emotions would
make them part of the collective whole, rather than a role model.
In fact, when they do act out a role, they attract others to them
who actually expect them to play that role. When someone says:
“Be this for me,” it feeds their ego but then they’re trapped in that
role. The irony is that they are bringing a higher energy onto the
planet, but they are ineffective as long as they try to do it on an ego
level. They are learning that instead of doing something, they
simply have to be who they really are.
Pisces North Node people are attached to a sense of duty for the
purpose of creating order. They think they must play a particular
role or enact a particular ritual or routine, and that it’s their
responsibility to perform this duty or service. To them, becoming
part of the Flow would mean agreeing to be nobody. Yet agreeing to
be nobody makes them think they’re not doing their job—and that
brings up guilt. “If I don’t fulfill my duty, I’m doing something
wrong.” It’s a self-perpetuating cycle that is entirely in their minds.
It’s based on the idea that they are superior to others and thus have a
lofty mission.
Something has to “jolt” them in order to release them from this
cycle and force them to accept their own humanity. They may find
themselves embroiled in a situation that is truly out of their control.
Humility and acceptance are the only way out, the only way they
can let go of the vicious perfection/duty/guilt cycle. At some point,
letting go would mean saying: “Well, I guess I can’t do a perfect
job. I guess I’ll just have to give it to God.” That is when their
consciousness shifts and they are able to see a much larger vision.