Leo North Node people have spent many lifetimes living on the
sidelines watching others interact. They were the scientists, the
observers, those who sacrificed personal identity to promote
humanitarian causes and ideals. They are accustomed to linking
their creative energy to the dreams and aspirations of others,
without taking into account their own needs and desires.
Thus, in past lives they lost touch with the vital energy of their
inner child. In this life they have again subconsciously chosen
environments that negate their inner child, in order to work through
this issue and regain the connection with their vital energy. They
may be born into a violent household where objective observation
of a parent’s behavior is a matter of survival. Or they may be born
into an alcoholic household in which the emotional responses of one
or both parents are unpredictable, and since they are not able to trust
their caretakers, the only safe route is to suppress their feelings. Or
perhaps the loss of a parent at an early age gave them an added
sense of responsibility, and they felt it wasn’t okay for them to “just
be a kid.”
These folks have had so many past lives of being objective and
watching from a scientific point of view that in this lifetime they
have a real fear of getting involved. They’re afraid of losing their
objectivity; subconsciously they feel it’s the only thing that has kept
them safe in the past. But this lifetime is about becoming involved
and learning how to play! They’ve taken the stuffy, scientific
approach for too many incarnations—they have not been having fun
on this planet—so this time they need to go in the direction of
enjoying themselves. When they are around children, their own
inner child is reflected back to them. When they see children
playing and simply being themselves, it inspires these natives to
play and become involved in life. And this is their challenge—to
step back into the center of life’s vitality.
Owing to their past-life scientific orientation, Leo North Node
people enter into this incarnation with a “laboratory objectivity”—
continually observing without seeking to change, or in any way
interfere with, the data. This allows them to be very clear and
accurate about what is going on. However, if they become overly
identified with the role of “Important Observer” it can become an
ego trip, where they stand back and pass judgment on other people
and feel superior.
They may take the approach: “We’re going to cut through all the
nonsense and tell it like it is!” and then, when they see the look on
the other person’s face, they feel badly. But their minds say: “Well, I
said it! I’ll stand by it!” and they settle into the rigidity of their
position. However, in this lifetime these folks have the challenge of
pointing out to others what is going on in positive ways that make
them laugh and/or help them change their perspective and lighten
their burdens. This time Leo North Node people need to not only
see what’s going on but actively participate in transforming “what
is” into something positive for all concerned, including themselves.
In this incarnation, their life purpose is to learn how to get what they
want, not through detachment but through intense involvement.
Leo North Node people sometimes feel as if they are being
swept up in other people’s dramas and they themselves are just
sitting back—powerless—even though they can clearly see the
writing on the wall. They think that other people can adjust their
course of action, “sail their boat into the wind,” change direction,
and win from prevailing conditions. But Leo North Node people
often feel as if they watch the wind change and are aware of the
waves, but can’t seem to hook up with the energy and take
advantage of the situation.
These folks get “stuck” on one side of the creative pendulum. To
successfully manifest a dream, the process involves both
observation and action. Sometimes it’s necessary to pull hard on the
ropes to physically maneuver the boat, regain equilibrium as the
boat shifts, move heavy objects into balanced positions in readiness
for the new direction, and “batten down the hatches” to prepare for
the change. A lot of energy has to be exerted. Accurate observation
of the prevailing forces is an equally important part of the creative
process so that all the energy is expended in the right direction. Leo
North Node people are great on the observation end, but they must
remember to swing into action in order to create changes in the
physical world.
Sometimes Leo North Node people can practically “think
themselves to death.” They analyze everything, think of all the
things that can go wrong, check the moods of the people around
them, and gain all the knowledge they can so that they won’t make
a mistake once they decide to act. However, there are so many
different things to think about that they become overwhelmed and
paralyzed. This tendency to seek security through “certain
knowledge” can keep them from taking the risks that could increase
their vitality, and it often locks them into stagnant, passive lives.
These folks are learning to become more fluid; they must start
trusting their intuition rather than clinging to their logical strategies.
They need to be willing to consider that their basic premise might
be in error. However, they often assume they possess superior
knowledge; even though that “knowledge” blocks them from
manifesting their dream, they may stubbornly hold on to it. “In
order for me to follow my heart and take a chance to create what I
want, x, y, and z conditions must first be met.” But they never are.
These folks need to release the idea that they can be totally in
control of the success or failure of their dream. In fact, life is their
partner; when they put aside their concerns and begin doing
whatever they can each moment, little by little they will make their
dreams real. If they are not willing to do this and their “right
conditions” are never met, these folks may postpone taking a risk
until it is too late and the window of opportunity is closed.
Leo North Node people are learning how to transcend the
limitations of the scientific approach and be truly creative.
Creativity can’t be planned or put on a schedule. It is a process of
working hand in hand with the intuition and energy available in
each moment and with the materials at hand. It involves deciding
where to go and then cooperating with the universal Flow to
accomplish that objective. The end result may not be exactly what
was expected, but the energy of that expectation will be joyously
and successfully manifested.
Leo North Node people must accept what the universe brings to
help make their dreams come true. When they say to the universe:
“I want an answer on this,” and every time the universe brings them
an answer their mind says: “No, that’s not it,” they invalidate their
own answers by not acting on them. They go in circles and feel
estranged from their life force. When this occurs, it is a signal for
these folks to take action. They need to contribute to life in some
way: pick up the phone and call a friend, send a loved one a gift, or
sign up for a sport or activity that will reconnect them with their
energy. When they are linked with their own energy they feel
articulate, able to connect with others emotionally and intellectually
—they feel terrific!
Leo North Node people lack recognition of their personal power
to make creative changes in their lives. They think the Flow has all
the power, so they feel powerless. Often they even put up with
abusive situations—believing “that’s just how it is”—because they
don’t think they have the power to change it. One of their most
important lessons in this lifetime is to recognize that they do have
the power—in fact, a special talent—to enact constructive change
based on their own view of the larger picture.
In past lives these folks would tune in to the Flow of Universal
Energy to guide them, and that worked perfectly. In this lifetime, as
long as they are actively pursuing their own goal (one that resonates
with their inner child), they can again trust that the Flow (with a
capital “F”) is guiding them in the right direction. The danger lies in
when they do not feel an inner connection to their goal. Then,
because their destiny in this lifetime is to learn how to relate with
others in a creative way, the flow they pick up is actually other
people’s energy, not Universal Guidance. At these times, when
they’re “going with the flow” (small “f”), it’s really the flow of
other people’s desires and wants, which may be based on very
selfish concerns.
Leo North Node people also go along with the flow to appease
people. It’s their way of cooperating and being accepted without
having to get in the middle of things and risk emotional disruption.
The only problem is that when these people go along with the flow,
they frequently end up playing second fiddle to other people’s
willfulness. When they feel this maelstrom of other people’s
desires, their best bet is to simply step back and temporarily
withdraw so they can recognize and validate their own feelings in
the situation—then simply trust what they want. Their job is to
follow what makes their inner child happy. As those feelings grow
stronger, these folks will know they are on the right path.
Their minds—which use “scientific appraisals” of what’s best for
everyone—are not good barometers for Leo North Node people in
this lifetime. They need to focus on the joy of the child within.
When they choose to walk in this direction, someone who was
counting on them for his or her own needs may feel hurt or
disappointed. But they should keep in mind that in the larger
scheme of things, this may be exactly what the person needs to
learn in terms of his or her own personal responsibility. Leo North
Node people have no idea of what everyone else’s lessons are. All
they can know with certainty is the feeling of pure happiness inside
themselves; that feeling is their only sure beacon toward right
action.
When Leo North Node people follow their minds rather than the
longings of their own hearts, they avoid what they are here for in
this incarnation—to do what makes them happy. For many lifetimes
these people have served humanitarian purposes, so their inner child
has been very purified. Whatever makes that happiness inside them
“ring true” is what they need to follow—it is the only voice that will
lead them out of the confusion of other people’s ego energy and into
the light of their own radiant individuality.
Most folks would give anything to be given the following
prescription in this lifetime: Play and have fun! These folks are free
to do this because they automatically act in ways that are
responsible. Their pathway of Right Action now is to pursue their
individuality and to manifest their own dreams without allowing
others to stand in their way.
These folks may have unfortunate “group karma” in this
lifetime, which contributes to their confusion with other people’s
energy. In past lives they were very involved with groups of people,
but they lost touch with their own individuality. In this incarnation
they tend to decide which social group they’d like to be a part of,
and then “make themselves” belong. They act out the part: They
start dressing like those people, using the same expressions,
emulating their behavior, and adopting their perspectives. When the
group does accept them, they lose their identity in the effort of
being just like everyone else. The problem is, they did the process
backwards! Instead of being themselves (that is, expressing their
own individuality and choosing friends based on true inner affinity),
they used their minds to decide whom they would be friends with.
Even as children, these folks have a tendency to fall in with “fastlane” peers and then get into trouble because they are following
their friends rather than their own judgment.
In all group situations, Leo North Node people face the challenge
of expressing their own individuality. Often they end up being part
of groups where others think they belong—but sometimes their
“disguise” breaks down at a decisive moment because the people
around them recognize that these folks are not really being
themselves, and thus feel a lack of mutual trust.
It would benefit these folks to understand the true nature of a
group. Groups that one can really count on for support are based on
a natural coming together of individuals who are in touch with their
intrinsic natures and have their own personal sense of what is
important. These groups form spontaneously out of the natural
affinity. That is why, in order for Leo North Node people to have
healthy group relationships, they must stay in touch with their inner
being. In the process of asserting their individuality, they will truly
notice and respect the individuality of others. Their alliances will be
based on mutual respect for one another’s unique inner nature,
rather than yielding to one another’s wills and expectations.
Many times, Leo North Node people lose themselves in
daydreaming about the future. This is owing to the sadness they feel
because they have not created the vitality they seek. They daydream
about everything: how it’s going to be “later,” someone they’re
going to run into again, someone they know and how it could be—
perhaps how it will be . . . until dream after dream fills their
consciousness. However, spending too much energy in daydreaming
dilutes their creative fire. They need to spend less time in
daydreaming and more time in taking action.
In this lifetime it works for them to decide: “Well, what would I
like to create? What would be fun for me?” They get many different
ideas, and their inner child says: “Yeah, let’s do that one!” The only
problem is that they can sit back for years thinking about it, doing
nothing. It creates a deep sadness within when they waste years
never realizing their dreams.
The issue of manifesting dreams is a crucial one. In this
incarnation Leo North Node people have the power to create their
own destiny, but it’s up to them to take charge of their lives and do
it! They must choose one dream that resonates deeply for them and
take the steps in the outer world that will turn that dream into
reality. Sometimes this can be a frustrating process. There can be
such a gap between their dream and reality that it seems almost
impossible to bring the two into alignment. Yet these people have a
unique talent for manifesting in the material world whatever they
dream about. The first step is to recognize that participating in the
game of creativity can itself be fun and satisfying. They need to
enjoy the process of creating their dream, and not postpone
happiness until “later.”
Leo North Node people have a tendency to become impatient
with their dreams and try to force them into reality. Sometimes the
gap between their dreams and current circumstances seems too
wide, and they give up in defeat. Yet this is not in their best interest,
for in their hearts they continue to long for their dream and feel
dissatisfied with the reality around them. They must slow
themselves down and allow the creative process itself to lead them.
As they successfully complete the first step toward their goal, the
next step will occur to them. If they wait to see the whole picture
before taking action, they will never gain enough “knowledge” to
have the confidence to act. For them, vitality lies in taking risks.
Leo North Node people are learning to keep their goal in mind.
They are so easily distracted by life’s multitude of opportunities that
they have trouble staying “tuned in” to the goal that originally
excited them. They are learning to develop their will and stay on
path regardless of distractions and obstacles. To do this, they need
to see themselves as players instead of observers.
Sometimes, when they first see an opportunity to experience their
dream, they get caught up in the happy energy this creates and start
moving in that direction. But then they realize there isn’t a straight,
easy road from where they are to where they want to be. If things
start to become shaky and are not turning out as they imagined, they
tend to give up, or they get distracted on some other path that holds
less energy for them in the long run.
Leo North Node people are learning that to create the happiness
they envision for their lives, they won’t always be able to forge
straight ahead. As they move toward their goal, a “second force” is
often introduced—a resistance to their dream. Then they must pull
back and rise above that resistance—experience a growth in
character that takes them to a new level. It’s somewhat like a fairy
tale: The Prince has to go through tests of character (slaying the
monsters, etc.) before he wins the prize. The second force that these
folks encounter is actually a part of their character that has always
been in their way but that only becomes apparent when it stands
between them and getting something they want. If they want to win
the prize, they must go through these tests of character—gaining in
strength and self-discipline and overcoming their greatest fears—
and not back down.
One of the main lessons Leo North Node people are learning is
to become involved in the joy of the creative process. But their
greatest frustration can be the discrepancy between their dreams and
the stark reality they see unfolding around them. Although these
folks are accustomed to “going with the flow” of what others have
created, in this lifetime they are supposed to create the situations
they want. But they don’t know how. How does someone so used to
following an objective, uninvolved path suddenly turn around and
create something? How does he even begin? The fear of not
knowing is what leads Leo North Node people into the trap of
pursuing more and more knowledge, seeking an answer that they
hope will empower them to act. Ultimately, the answer is intention.
When they are totally focused on what they want to create, the
knowledge they need will come to them in the process of going
forth to actively create what they want. In this incarnation, their job
is to create their dreams now.
Leo North Node people are always hoping that they will gain
enough knowledge to feel confident in taking action. But these folks
could be 200 years old and still think they didn’t have enough
knowledge to act! They must stop using knowledge as an excuse to
postpone action and admit that it’s okay to be wrong sometimes. In
fact, it’s through making mistakes that we gain more “real”
knowledge about what actually works in life.
In certain ways, Leo North Node people have lots of solid selfconfidence. However, their self-confidence is founded on trusting
their own information base. They have total confidence in what they
think they know, but their sense of “knowing” is based on past
experience and observations. When they form rigid ideas based on
knowledge only of the past, they limit the potential of their future.
Their challenge is to be willing to not know—to be childlike and
experiment. They need to follow their hearts—to try things even
though other people aren’t doing them—and find out what happens.
This will bring vitality back into their lives, and they will see that
even though they don’t “know” how to do it, they can create
positive results here and now.
These folks like to wait for the certainly of knowledge in order to
avoid the pain of making mistakes. But they need to learn to follow
the dynamism of their inner child, which will take them into new,
uncharted territories of pleasure, excitement, discovery, romance,
and creativity. If they don’t, they will become discontented,
disassociated, and confused about why the drummer they were
following didn’t lead them to a happier place. Any stubborn
attachment to “knowledge” or “conditions” as a guide will be a
stumbling block. For example, a Leo North Node client of mine had
spent the past twenty-two years trying to leave his wife so that he
could begin a new life. But he became fixated on the idea that in
order to leave, he had to amass enough money to take care of his
wife financially. For twenty-two years the more money he made, the
more she spent, and he could never accumulate enough money to
meet his prerequisite. However, his wife was creative, independent,
and highly intelligent. By not allowing her the power to make it on
her own, and by continually striving to meet his “conditions” before
acting, he trapped himself in an unhappy marriage.
To increase their vitality and enjoyment of life, Leo North Node
people must step out into the unknown, and find their truth directly
through experience. To take risks without knowing all the
repercussions requires trust, and to gain innovative knowledge
requires the innocent courage of a child. These folks must trust the
vitality within themselves. If they keep their goal in mind, they will
see what adjustments to make along the way in order to get where
they want to go.
Leo North Node people are excellent at games and can play out
any role they choose. Their objectivity allows them to construct
excellent strategies. Once they have a goal firmly in mind, they can
see how to play their role with the other people involved to make
their dream come true. This talent can be particularly useful in
situations where they feel insecure. If they allow themselves to view
it as a “game,” their natural ability to role play will kick in.
Once they discern their role, they can create a strategy for
winning. The strategy may call for them to play different roles as
the situation progresses. At one stage they may need to be “Jim the
Healer” and at the next stage “Jim, the Man of Your Dreams.” The
idea is to see the role they need to play to further their goal at that
time, and then to play it to the hilt. They’re very good at it, and it’s
immense fun for them at the same time! The only word of caution is
for them to remember the importance of fairness and to only enact
roles that work for the best interest of everyone involved.
Leo North Node people would do well to recognize that they can
also use their sense of drama to emphasize a point so that others
hear them. Because of their tendency to go along with things,
people often take advantage of their easy-going nature. Then they
resent that others aren’t taking them seriously and giving them the
respect they deserve. So they must be firm in making a point: “I
have an important phone call right now; I can’t talk, I’ll be out in
fifteen minutes.” It’s not what they say, but how they say it, that
gets others’ attention. They can use their dramatic flair to meet their
more immediate needs in day-to-day situations as well.
These folks are also excellent gamblers, because they are not
immersed in “winning” on an emotional, ego-centered level. Since
they are aware of the larger forces and prevailing energies of the
Flow, they know when to press forward and when to pull back in
placing their bets—and in reaching their goals. In this lifetime, they
are learning that even a “wrong” action—if they are following the
energy of happiness in their heart—is better than inaction. However,
it’s important that they continue to think of it as a game. They must
continue to reassess their strategy before making a new move if
they want to win.