He looked about the room. There were her photographs of her sisters, her hairbrushes, a gilt mirror on the dressing table, her clothes laid across the chair. He leant over her bed, and felt his hand sink into the rich pile of covers beneath the quilt. A sweet smell rose up from the bed. He kissed her on the lips and touched her hair before leaving.

Isabelle shuddered as he went, fearing the noise of his footsteps in the echoing corridor. Stephen moved, soundlessly to his own ears at least, to the main junction of the first-floor landing, then went downstairs to rejoin the game he had left.

The following morning Stephen went into town. Azaire told him he should not return to the factory for another day or so, but he found it difficult to stay quietly in the house with Lisette, Marguerite, and various other visitors or members of the household preventing Isabelle from being alone or available to talk. He thought of his life as a wood of confusion with two or three clear tracks on which he could orientate himself. From their directions he could remember and look forward with something like clarity. While they were straight enough and discernible to him, they also felt like scars that had been cut into the undergrowth, and he had no desire to reveal them to other people. For Isabelle he felt great gratitude and admiration; in the pressure of his emotion toward her there was an impulse to disclosure, a natural movement toward trust. He did not fear this nakedness but he did not feel pleasure at the prospect of it.

He was standing at the back of the cold cathedral, looking up to the choir stalls and the window in the east. It was quiet enough to think. There was the sound of a brush on the tiled floor as a cleaner worked her way down the side of the nave, and the occasional bang of the small entrance, set into the main doors, through which visitors arrived from time to time. A handful of people were praying in the body of the church. A medieval bishop was commemorated in Latin on a stone beneath his feet, his name still not erased by the traffic of the years. Stephen felt sorry for whatever anguish had caused the urgent prayers of the scattered worshippers, though also mildly envious of their faith. The chilly, hostile building offered little comfort; it was a memento mori on an institutional scale. Its limited success was in giving dignity through stone and lapidary inscription to the trite occurrence of death. The pretence was made that through memorial the blink of light between two eternities of darkness could be saved and held out of time, though in the bowed heads of the people who prayed there was only submission. So many dead, he thought, only waiting for another eyelid’s flicker before this generation joins them. The difference between living and dying was not one of quality, only of time.

He sat down on a chair and held his face in his hands. He saw a picture in his mind of a terrible piling up of the dead. It came from his contemplation of the church, but it had its own clarity: the row on row, the deep rotting earth hollowed out to hold them, while the efforts of the living, with all their works and wars and great buildings, were no more than the beat of a wing against the weight of time. He knelt forward on the cushion on the floor and held his head motionless in his hands. He prayed instinctively, without knowing what he did. Save me from that death. Save Isabelle. Save all of us. Save me.

He arrived back too late to have lunch with Isabelle and Lisette, both of whom in their different ways were disappointed. He walked through the cool, quiet house, hoping to hear voices. Eventually he heard the sound of feet and he turned to see Marguerite going into the kitchen.

“Have you seen Madame Azaire?”

“No, Monsieur. Not since lunch. Perhaps she’s in the garden.”

“And Lisette?”

“I think she’s gone into town.”

Stephen began to look in all the rooms downstairs. Surely she must have known that he would return. She could not have gone out without leaving a message.

He turned the handle on a door that led to a small study. Isabelle was sitting inside, reading a book. She put it down and stood up as he came in. He went over to her, not sure if he should touch her. She put her hand on his.

“I was in the cathedral. I lost track of time.”

She looked up at him. “Is it all right? Is everything all right?” He kissed her and she pressed herself close to him. He found his hands at once searching beneath her clothes.

Her eyes looked up into his. They were wide and enquiring, full of urgency and light. Almost at once they closed as she let out a little sigh of excitement. They were leaning against the wall of the room and he had slipped his hand through the fastening at the back of her skirt. He could feel the satin under his fingers, then a round soft swell beneath. He felt her fingers on the front of his trousers.

“We must stop.” He pulled himself back.

“Yes. Lisette has gone.” Isabelle was breathless. “But Marguerite.”

“The red room?”

“Yes. You go first and go up to your room. Give me ten minutes before you come down.”

“All right,” he said. “Let me kiss you good-bye.” He kissed her deeply and she began to sigh again and rubbed herself against him. “Please,” she said, “please.”

He did not know if she meant him to stop or to continue. He had lifted her skirts as she stood with her back to the wall and now had his fingers between her legs. “Come to me,” she whispered, her breath hot in his ear. “Into me, now.” He removed her fumbling fingers from his trousers and freed himself. His shoulder was next to the polished wood of a glass-fronted bookcase. Behind Isabelle’s head was a framed picture of flowers in a terra-cotta pot. He had to lift her a little, clasping her behind with his hands, until she slithered on to him and wrapped her legs around his waist so that he could not move but had to bear her weight. The flowers moved a quarter turn on their hook as her shoulder nudged them.

She opened her eyes again and smiled at him. “I love you.” She covered his face with kisses, keeping his body captive by her weight. Then she put her feet on the ground again and gently pulled him out of her. His flesh was rigid and swollen with blood. She ran her hand up and down it until he began to pant and give way at the knees, then spurted on to the floor, then against her dress, before she could take the last three or four spasms in her mouth. She appeared to do this from instinct, almost from a sense of tidiness, not because it was something she had known about or done before.

“The red room,” she said. “In ten minutes.”

Her clothes had fallen back into place. She seemed unaware of any mark on the front of her dress. Stephen watched her as she moved from the room, her walk, as always, a modest sway beneath the skirt. He felt awkward, half-undressed; it was as though she had treated him like a boy and taunted him, though he did not dislike the feeling. He rearranged his trousers and shirt and took his handkerchief to the polished parquet.

He walked briefly in the garden, trying to cool his head; then as instructed, went up to his room. He watched the minute hand crawl round on his pocket watch. If he added three minutes for the garden, that gave him only seven to endure. When it was time, he removed his shoes and went silently to the first floor. Down the main corridor to a narrow passage, down again and through a little arch… He remembered the way.

Isabelle was waiting inside. She wore a robe with some oriental pattern in green and red.

She said, “I was so afraid.”

He sat down next to her on the stripped bed. “What do you mean?” She took his hand between both of hers. “When you wouldn’t look at me last night I was afraid that you’d changed your mind.”

“About you?”

“Yes.”

He felt invigorated by Isabelle’s concern. It still seemed improbable to him that she could really want him so much.

He took her hair and all its colours in his hands. He felt grateful to her also.

“After all we said and all we did. How could you doubt?”

“You wouldn’t look at me. I was frightened.”

“What could I have said? I would have given us away.”

“You must smile or nod. Something. Promise me that.” She had started to kiss his face. “We’ll work out a signal. Promise me, won’t you?”

“Yes. I promise you.”

He let her undress him, passively standing by as she took off his clothes and folded them on the chair. He braved the exposure of his gross excitement and she affected not to notice.

“My turn,” he said, but there was only the silk robe to take off and then the beauty of Isabelle’s skin. He laid his cheek against the whiteness of her chest and kissed her throat where he had seen the flush of exertion when she had been gardening. The skin was young and new and almost white, with its patterning of little marks and freckles that he tried to taste with the tip of his tongue. Then he laid her gently down on the bed and buried his face in the fragrance of her hair, covering his own head with it. Next, he made her stand up again while he worked slowly over her body with his hands and his tongue. He let his fingers trail only briefly between her legs and felt her stiffen. At last, when he had touched every part of her skin, he turned her round and bent her forward on to the bed, then moved her ankles a little further apart with the pressure from his foot. When they had finished making love they slept, Isabelle beneath a blanket with her arm draped over Stephen, he uncovered, on his front, at an angle across the mattress. She had not yet had time to wash and return When he awoke he at once rested his head on her splayed hair and breathed in the perfume of her skin where his face was against her neck and the soft underline of her jaw. She smiled as she felt his skin and opened her eyes.

He said, “I was convinced when I came down the stairs that I wouldn’t be able to find this room again. I thought it wouldn’t be here.”

“It won’t move. It’s always here.”

“Isabelle. Tell me. Your husband. One night I heard sounds from your room as though he was… hurting you.”

Isabelle sat up, pulling a blanket over her. She nodded. “Sometimes he… becomes frustrated.”

“What do you mean?”

Her eyes filled with tears. “We wanted to have children. Nothing seemed to happen. I used to dread each month… you know.”

He nodded.

“The blood was like a rebuke. He said it was my fault. I tried for him, but I didn’t know what to do. He was very brusque, he wasn’t cruel to me but he just wanted to do it quickly so I would be pregnant. It was not like with you.” Isabelle suddenly looked shy. To mention what they did seemed more shameful than to do it.

She went on, “Eventually he began to doubt himself, I think. To start with he was so sure it was nothing to do with him because he had two children. Then he was not so sure. He seemed to grow jealous of me because I was young. ‘You’re so healthy, of course,’ he would say. ‘You’re just a child.’ And things like that. There was nothing I could do. I always made love to him, though I didn’t enjoy it. I never criticized him. He seemed to build up this disgust with himself. It made him talk to me sarcastically. Perhaps you’ve noticed. He began to criticize me all the time when other people were here. I think that for some reason he felt guilty about marrying me.”

“Guilty?”

“Perhaps toward his first wife, or perhaps because he felt he married me under false pretences.”

“Because he took you away from someone of your own age?”

Isabelle nodded, but did not speak.

“And then?”

“Eventually it became so bad that he could no longer make love to me. He said I castrated him. Naturally this made him feel worse and worse. So he would try to make himself excited by doing… strange things.”

“What?”

“Not, not like the things you and I… ” Isabelle stopped in confusion.

“Did he hit you?”

“Yes. To begin with it was to try to make himself excited. I don’t know why this was supposed to help. Then I think it was out of frustration and shame. But when I protested he said it was part of making love and I must submit to it if I wanted to be a good wife and to have children.”

“Does he hit you very hard?”

“No, not very hard. He slaps me on the face and on the back. He takes a slipper sometimes and pretends I am a child. Once he wanted to hit me with a stick, but I stopped him.”

“And he has hurt you badly?”

“No. I have occasionally had a bruise, or a red mark. It isn’t the damage I mind. It’s the humiliation. He makes me feel like an animal. And I feel sorry for him because he humiliates himself. He is so angry and so ashamed.”

“How long has it been since you made love?” Stephen felt the first twinge of jealous self-interest cloud his sympathy.

“Almost a year. It is absurd that he still pretends that’s why he comes to my room. We both know he comes only to hit me now, or to hurt me. But we pretend.” Stephen was not surprised by what Isabelle had told him, though he was incensed at the thought of Azaire hurting her.

“You must stop him. You must end this. You must tell him not to come to your room.”

“But I am frightened of what he would do, or what he would say. He would tell everyone that I was a bad wife, that I wouldn’t sleep with him. I think he already tells stories to his friends about me.”

Stephen thought of Bérard’s secret glances. He took Isabelle’s hand and kissed it, then held it against his face. “I will look after you,” he said.

“Dear boy,” she said. “You are so strange.”

“Strange?”

“So serious, so… removed. And the things you make me do.”

“Do I make you do things?”

“No, not like that. I mean, I do things of my own accord but it is only because of you. I don’t know if these things are right, if they are… allowed.”

“Like downstairs?”

“Yes. I know, of course I know, I am unfaithful, but the actual things. I’ve never done them before. I don’t know if they are normal, if other people do them. Tell me.”

“I don’t know,” said Stephen.

“You must know. You’re a man, you’ve known other women. My sister Jeanne told me about the act of love but that’s all I knew. You must understand more.” Stephen was uneasy. “I’ve known only two or three other women. It was quite different with them. I think what we do is its own explanation.”

“I don’t understand.”

“Nor do I. But I know you mustn’t feel ashamed.”

Isabelle nodded, though her face showed dissatisfaction with Stephen’s answer.

“And do you?” he said. “Do you feel guilty?”

Isabelle shook her head. “I think perhaps I should feel guilty. But I don’t.”

“And do you worry about that? Do you worry that you have lost something, lost the power to feel ashamed, lost touch with the values or the upbringing that you would have expected to make you feel a sense of guilt?”

Isabelle said, “No. I feel that what I have done, that what we are doing, is right in some way, though it is surely not the way of the Catholic church.”

“You believe there are other ways of being right or wrong?” Isabelle looked puzzled, but she was clear in her mind. “I think there must be. I don’t know what they are. I don’t know if they can ever be explained. Certainly they are not written down in books. But I have already gone too far now. I can’t turn back.”

Stephen folded his arms around her and squeezed her. He lay back on the bed with her head resting on his chest. He felt her body go limp as the muscles decontracted into sleep. There was the sound of doves in the garden. He felt his heart beat against her shoulder. The smell of roses came faintly from her scented neck. He settled his hand in the curve of her ribs. His nerves were stilled in the sensuous repletion of the moment that precluded thought. He closed his eyes. He slept, at peace.