CARCASSONNE
Sandrine cleared up all she could, then packed a case for Liesl and left. She walked through the Bastide, delivering the remaining prisoners’ letters on her way back to the rue du Palais.
She put her head round the door of the salon to tell Marianne she was home, then went upstairs to the bathroom to wash and change her clothes.
‘I never thought I’d get rid of the smell,’ she said when she came back down. ‘Not that cold water and what passes for soap help much.’
She sat down in the armchair and crossed her legs. ‘I couldn’t do anything about the graffiti on the walls – it will need painting over – but I salvaged most of the clothes and photographs.’
Marianne nodded. ‘Well done.’
‘Where is Liesl?’
‘Resting.’ Marianne sighed. ‘Lucie’s still here too. Marieta said she’s been asleep most of the day. It must have been something she ate, she didn’t drink much wine last night.’
‘How is she? Liesl, I mean.’
‘Not so bad, given the circumstances. She’s tougher than she looks.’ Marianne sighed. ‘Of course, she’s been through a lot already.’
‘Did you tell her I thought I saw Max?’
‘No, I thought we should wait until we were sure. I telephoned Suzanne, though, and asked her to go to the police station.’ She sighed again. ‘She’s already been there once today, trying to find out what’s happened to César Sanchez.’
‘Any luck?’
Marianne shook her head. ‘No, which could be good news or not. Impossible to say.’
Sandrine thought for a moment. ‘Will they tell Suzanne about Max, given she’s not a relative?’
‘Whenever a train leaves Carcassonne,’ Marianne said, ‘the police are supposed to post a list of names of prisoners being deported and where they’re being sent.’
‘Do they?’
‘Sometimes.’
‘Did you tell Suzanne what happened to Liesl?’
‘Yes.’
‘What about Lucie?’
‘She was asleep,’ said Marianne, ‘which I admit was a relief. The news – if it’s true – will hit her hard.’
She stood up. ‘Do you want something to drink? You look all in.’
Sandrine smiled. ‘Please. Whatever there is.’
She shut her eyes and leant back against the chair, as exhausted as she’d ever felt in her life.
‘Here you go,’ said Marianne, handing her a glass of red wine. ‘I think you’ve earned it, don’t you?’
‘Thank you.’
Sandrine took a sip of wine, then another, feeling the immediate effects of the alcohol warming her blood. Despite the temperature, she was cold. Tiredness, she supposed.
Marianne returned to her usual spot on the sofa. ‘I’ve just had a rather peculiar exchange with Marieta, who asked, apropos of nothing, if we might be going to Coustaussa this summer. Extraordinary! As if we can suddenly up sticks and go like we used to.’ She shook her head. ‘I can’t imagine what’s brought that on.’
‘I can,’ Sandrine said. ‘I meant to tell you about a conversation we had yesterday, but then I saw Raoul and it put everything else out of my mind.’
‘Yes,’ Marianne said wryly.
Sandrine smiled, then explained what had happened in the garden. ‘The thing is, I’d never seen Marieta so rattled before. Having slept on it, I’m sure she’s now decided she wants to see Monsieur Baillard in person rather than rely on the post.’
‘How odd,’ Marianne said. ‘And you’re sure “Baillard” was the name Déjean said?’
‘Pretty sure. Have you ever heard of him?’
‘I think Papa might have mentioned him once or twice.’
For a while the girls sat in silence. Sandrine sipped her wine and allowed herself, for almost the first time in the headlong day, to think about Raoul.
She felt a wave of exhilaration, followed fast on its heels by a suffocating thought that she might not see him again for weeks, months.
‘Do you think he’ll be all right?’ she said quietly.
‘Raoul?’
Sandrine nodded.
Marianne paused. ‘Honestly, darling, I don’t know. You saw what it was like today, what happened to Liesl. Things are getting worse.’
The sound of a door opening upstairs brought the conversation to a halt. Marianne got up and went into the hall.
‘It’s Liesl,’ she said, then raised her voice and called up the stairs. ‘We’re in here. Come down when you’re ready.’
A few moments later, the girl appeared. She was pale, and there were dark circles under her eyes, but she seemed calm.
‘How are you feeling?’ Marianne asked, patting the sofa beside her.
‘A little better,’ she said in her quiet voice. She sat down.
‘Would you like something to drink? Are you hungry?’
‘Nothing, thank you.’
‘Do you want to tell us what happened?’ Sandrine said. ‘Or would you rather not?’
‘No, I don’t mind.’
Liesl took a deep breath, then began to talk in a steady, clear voice. With no self-pity at all. The more she heard, the more angry Sandrine became.
‘We should report them,’ she said fiercely, when Liesl had finished.
‘Max has tried to report them, many times,’ Liesl said. ‘The police always say there’s nothing they can do.’
‘But this isn’t just name-calling, throwing stones – though that’s bad enough. This is criminal.’
‘I could hear them breaking things, smashing the windows, ruining everything,’ Liesl said quietly, ‘but I didn’t see them. I couldn’t identify them.’
‘It’s beyond belief that this could happen in the middle of the day,’ said Sandrine. ‘What about the neighbours? Didn’t they notice?’
From the look on Liesl’s face, it was clear the neighbours had heard, but had decided not to intervene all the same.
‘I cleared up as much as I could,’ Sandrine said, now disillusioned as well as angry. ‘It was pretty foul, but apart from the graffiti, it wasn’t as bad as it looked at first glance. I brought what I could back with me.’
‘My camera?’ Liesl said quickly. ‘Max bought it for me. It’s a Furet.’
‘Yes, I got that. The thugs had turned the table over and the camera was underneath, so they missed it,’ Sandrine said. ‘I’ll fetch it.’
She went out into the hall. Someone was moving around on the first floor. She heard the chain flushing in the bathroom, then footsteps on the landing. Sandrine caught her breath. Even after two years, she half expected to see her father standing at the top of the stairs. His glasses in one hand and his newspaper in the other. She smiled. He’d never gone anywhere without his newspaper.
She stared into the empty space for a moment, the light fading from her face. She sighed, then picked up the case with Liesl’s things and went back into the salon.
‘Lucie’s up,’ she said to Marianne.
‘Lucie’s here? She’ll know where Max is,’ Liesl said with a spark of hope. ‘Have you asked her?’
‘Asked me what?’
Lucie looked dreadful. Pale, her lips cracked and tiny blue veins on her eyelids. She hadn’t even brushed her hair, let alone waved it, and her dress was crumpled.
‘Lucie!’ Sandrine blurted, before she could check herself.
She pulled a face. ‘I know, I look awful.’
‘I’ll get Marieta to bring some tea,’ Marianne said.
Lucie gave a wan smile, then noticed Liesl and her suitcase and became very still.
‘What’s going on? Why’s Liesl here? Where’s Max?’
‘Don’t you know where he is?’ Liesl said. ‘I thought – hoped – he was with you.’
‘What do you mean? He went straight home after the demonstration to have supper with you.’ Lucie turned to Marianne. ‘And why are you all sitting here like this? What’s going on?’
‘Let’s wait and see what Suzanne has to say,’ Marianne said. ‘No sense jumping to conclusions.’
‘What’s Suzanne got to do with it?’
‘We don’t know where Max is,’ Liesl said in a small voice.
‘Are you saying he didn’t come home?’ Lucie’s voice was rising. ‘Max is missing, is that what you’re saying? Max is missing?’
‘Come and sit down,’ Marianne said. ‘It won’t do any good to get worked up.’
‘I don’t want to sit down,’ Lucie threw back. ‘I want to know where Max is.’
‘We all do,’ Sandrine said, less sympathetically than Marianne. She put her hand on Lucie’s shoulder, who shrugged it off. ‘If you sit down, we’ll tell you what we do know. It’s impossible with you like this.’
For a moment, she thought she’d been too unkind. Lucie looked as if she was about to burst into tears. But then the hysteria seemed to go out of her and she crumpled into the armchair.
‘I’m sorry, I don’t know what’s got into me.’
‘It’s all right,’ Sandrine said more gently, sitting down beside her and taking her hand.
‘But will someone please tell me what’s going on?’
Still holding her hand, Sandrine told Lucie about what had happened at the apartment.
‘Oh my God,’ Lucie said. ‘It must have been awful.’
Liesl nodded.
‘So that’s partly, why Suzanne’s gone to the police station,’ Marianne said when she’d finished.
‘But Max must have had an accident,’ Lucie said, starting to stand up. ‘He was going straight home. We must ring the hospital. Not the police station.’ Then, seeing the expression on Sandrine and Marianne’s faces, her expression froze. ‘What, you think he’s been arrested, is that it?’ she said slowly. ‘But why, why would he be arrested? Max is careful. He’s always so careful, isn’t he, Liesl? He’d never go out without his papers.’
‘Never.’
‘There’s no reason for him to be arrested,’ Lucie said again, but the panic in her voice revealed how scared she was.
Sandrine caught Marianne’s eye and could see she was thinking the same thing. Given that Lucie was in such a state already, there was no point in continuing to keep their suspicions to themselves.
‘The thing is,’ Sandrine said carefully, ‘I think I might have seen him at the railway station earlier. He was a long way off and there was a woman in my way, blocking my view, but—’
‘The railway station?’ Lucie jumped in. ‘Why were you there?’
‘A group of prisoners were deported this morning,’ Marianne answered. ‘Sandrine thinks Max might have been one of them.’
The tiniest of cries escaped from Liesl’s mouth. The last vestiges of colour drained from Lucie’s cheeks.
‘He was a long way off,’ Sandrine said, feeling awful. ‘I didn’t want to say anything until I was sure it was him.’
‘It can’t have been Max . . .’ whispered Lucie.
‘Suzanne will be back any moment now,’ Marianne said. ‘Let’s wait until we know for certain. In the meantime, Liesl can’t go back to the flat, that much is obvious. The windows are broken and the door needs securing.’
In the hall, the telephone began to ring. Sandrine looked at Marianne, who got up and went to answer. In the salon, no one spoke.
Marianne came back into the room.
‘Was that Suzanne?’ Sandrine asked, feeling her heart speed up.
Her sister nodded.
‘Well?’ said Lucie, unable to keep the hope from her voice. ‘What did she say? His name wasn’t on the list, was it? It can’t have been on the list.’
‘I’m sorry,’ Marianne said quietly.
‘No . . .’ Lucie whispered.
Liesl caught her breath. ‘Where’s he been taken?’ she managed to ask.
‘They hadn’t a record of it,’ Marianne said in a steady voice. ‘Suzanne said they wouldn’t tell her.’
‘Wouldn’t or couldn’t?’ said Sandrine.
‘We don’t know where he’s been taken?’ Liesl said, her self-possession finally cracking.
‘What are we going to do?’ Lucie wailed. ‘If we don’t know where . . .’
Marianne put her arms around Liesl’s shoulders and finally the girl allowed herself to cry. Liesl’s distress seemed to prompt Lucie to try to pull herself together. She reached out and took her hand.
‘Hey, kid. It’ll be all right.’
Sandrine looked desperately at Marianne, who gestured for her to follow her out into the hall and leave Lucie and Liesl together for a moment. Marianne gently shut the door.
‘What are we going to do?’ Sandrine whispered.
‘The whole situation is peculiar,’ Marianne said in a low voice. ‘Suzanne said Max was the only person without a destination recorded on the list.’
‘Why would they keep it secret?’
‘I’m not sure. Suzanne got the impression that the police didn’t actually know where Max was being sent.’ She looked at the closed door. ‘We have to think seriously about what to do with Liesl. She can stay here for now, but she can’t go back to the flat. Possibly not at all, not until we know why Max was arrested.’
‘But she’s only sixteen. Her papers are in order.’
Marianne shrugged. ‘So were Max’s papers. Honestly, I can’t begin to work out what’s going on. This could be to do with their father, or something else entirely.’
Sandrine thought for a moment, then an idea started to take shape in her mind.
‘What about Coustaussa?’ she said slowly. ‘Marieta’s desperate to go and see her Monsieur Baillard. Liesl could go with her. At least until we find out where Max has been taken and why. She’ll be safer away from Carcassonne, especially with Madame Fournier next door.’
Marianne shook her head. ‘It would be so complicated to arrange,’ she said. ‘Changing the ration books, coupons, travel documents, too much to organise. I’m worried enough about Marieta as it is. I can’t ask her to take all that on.’
Sandrine felt a spark of possibility. She’d told Raoul he could go to Coustaussa if he was stuck. Of course, there was no reason for him to take her up on the offer. He’d head for Banyuls or any of the other places where he had friends who could help. But what if he couldn’t get that far south? What if he had nowhere else to go?
‘Well, how about if I went with them?’ Sandrine said in a level voice, though her heart was racing. ‘I could sort things out with the Mairie in Couiza, so the responsibility wouldn’t fall on Marieta’s shoulders.’ She paused. ‘As for Liesl, you or Suzanne could get her some alternative papers, couldn’t you?’
Marianne stared. ‘Well, yes. It would take a few days, but yes, we could manage that.’
‘Well then. As soon as that’s done, the three of us could go. I’ll get them settled in, then come back. Simple. The country air would do Marieta good in any case.’
Her sister was still frowning, though Sandrine could see she was considering the idea.
‘Would you mind?’ Marianne said eventually. ‘It will be a lot of work for you.’
Sandrine smiled. ‘I wouldn’t mind at all.’
By ten o’clock, the girls had worn themselves out with talking and planning and discussing. Marianne had convinced Liesl she couldn’t stay in Carcassonne, Sandrine had persuaded Lucie to stay another night with them and leave it to Suzanne to find out where Max had been sent. The plan was straightforward – Marieta, Liesl and Sandrine would leave for Coustaussa at the beginning of August, just as the family had done in the old days, while Lucie, Marianne and Suzanne would stay put in Carcassonne.
It was well past eleven when Sandrine and Marianne turned in. Her sister looked so tired, Sandrine offered to lock up. As she checked the shutters in the salon, she thought about how, in a matter of three days, her entire life had been turned on its head. And as she double-bolted the back and front doors and checked the blackout was in place, she realised it felt as if a layer of skin had been stripped from her bones.
She walked slowly upstairs. She hesitated a moment outside her father’s room, hearing the sound of Lucie crying behind the closed door. She was on the point of going in, then stopped herself. Grief was a private business. She suspected Lucie would rather be left alone. There was no noise coming from the box room where Liesl was sleeping.
Sandrine looked out through the landing window to where the stars shone bright in the clear July night sky. The full moon sent diamonds of coloured light dancing across the wall. For a moment she felt something shift inside her. Hearing an echo of other hearts and spirits as they fluttered and sighed and breathed. A consciousness of other lives once lived in the narrow streets of the medieval Cité or in the Bastide Saint-Louis.
‘Coratge,’ she murmured. ‘Courage.’
The moment passed. Everything returned to normal. Sandrine sighed, then went into her bedroom and closed the door. The house fell silent.
THE HAUTE VALLÉE
As soon as the broadcast had finished, Audric Baillard began to dismantle the wireless transmitter. Standing the small brown cardboard outer case of the receiver on the table, he wrapped the antenna in a lightweight jacket and pushed the headphones into the toe of a large woollen sock. He did not think the police would venture this high up into the mountains, but who was to say?
In between the usual code words and messages from the Free French to their colleagues in occupied France, Baillard had picked up news of yesterday’s Bastille Day demonstration in Carcassonne. The Midi was showing her true colours. He smiled for a moment, then went back to work.
He wrapped the four wire segments between the folds of an old copy of La Dépêche and put them at the bottom of a suitcase lying open on the chair beside him, then packed clothes on top of them. The smile slipped from his lips. If the news from Carcassonne was encouraging, the news from the North was the opposite. In the past months, whole families had been coming from Paris and Chartres to Ax-les-Thermes, in the hope of escaping over the mountains to Spain. From Spain to Portugal, then to England or America, even though America had closed her borders some time ago. Now, according to the wireless, there had been another mass round-up in Paris, this time involving thousands of police. Tens of thousands of Jewish men, women and children were incarcerated in the Vélodrome d’Hiver on the outskirts of the city. He hoped the rumours were exaggerated, though he feared they were not.
Baillard clipped shut the catch on his suitcase and put the case on the floor. He poured himself a glass of Guignolet and took it outside to watch the silver moon on the peaks of the Sabarthès mountains, as he had done so very many times before. Sometimes in the company of those he had loved and who had loved him. More often, alone.
He had intended to rest in Los Seres for a few days and gather his strength, ready to guide the next group of refugees to safety over the Pyrenees. But Antoine Déjean was much on his mind and the news on the wireless had caused him to change his plans. Baillard hoped that the demonstration was the reason Antoine had been unable to deliver the package as promised. He would return to Rennes-les-Bains. If there was still no letter, once he had taken the next group of refugees over the mountains to Spain, as he had promised, then he would go to Carcassonne and search for Déjean there.
Baillard had to act. He could not leave things to chance. Despite the propaganda printed by the collaborationist newspapers, Nazi victory was by no means assured. But if their enemies gained possession of the Codex, there would be nothing anyone could do to stem the tide of evil.
All of Europe would fall. And beyond.
Baillard stood a while longer, letting the alcohol warm his bones and the sight of the mountains calm his spirits. At midnight, he went back inside. He washed his lone glass and set it to drain beside the sink, then fastened all the shutters and locked and bolted the front door. Finally, with the weight of the heavy suitcase in his hand, he began the long, dark walk back down to the valley below.
Pas a pas . . . Step by step.