Everything begins to become very predictable, like the movements of a watch. Once you become intelligent enough, once you can step out of that and see all the mechanisms moving, you can make yourself insane because you then wonder, “What is the sense of this reality? Where is there something that isn’t measured, weighed, and predictable?”

You start to think that if everything is predictable, what is the meaning of life? What is the meaning of existence? There are all these mechanisms and eventually if you can be observant enough, there are also creations within these mechanisms. There are moments of pure creation: something that wasn’t predictable, something that couldn’t be timed, or something that wasn’t patterned.

Those are the moments that God looks for. Those are the moments that the Universe looks for. So there are revelations, but since you are going through the enlightenment cycles, you may miss that. You have to focus on that in order to want to be here. So there is a kind of madness and sense of separation, if you are not careful. Everything becomes very predictable.

When I was a red cell, it seemed to me that my life was a result of the activities I randomly did before. Now that I have become a white cell, it seems like I’m more predetermined. My life is already set before me.

Well, you have the ability to see further ahead. That creates that feeling. Before you became a white cell, your head was tilted down so you didn’t really see where everything was coming from; everything seemed very random. Now that you have the foresight and the ability to see distance, it does seem like you have that predictability. You are starting to see all of the patterns and that can be very depressing. It can be very minimalizing because you think there has to be something more; and there is. The idea is to find those things, operate within them, and affect them.

How do you bring your spirituality closer but not put it on a pedestal?

What are some ways, techniques or perspectives to do that?

Sometimes I have a problem putting myself out there. I play the blame game and say, “It’s your fault that I’m not meditating twice a day.”

How can you blame them?

I know. I can’t blame them.

No, you really can’t. Everybody is uniquely different. In your particular case, I can see that there is a very strong spiritual pull so there’s a battle inside of you to remain there. You get angry about being pulled out all of the time. You are probably contemplating whether or not to try to escape, to find a place to escape from life. You have to be very careful because you need to find acceptance in this reality, and I think it comes down to the terms that you perceive. Right now, you see it as an enemy.

You see it just exactly the way you said. You are angry because everything is pulling you out of where you want to be. You believe that if you could just be where you want to be long enough, you would have your final moment of an enlightenment cycle. You don’t realize that you are already in an enlightenment cycle. You are already there, and I think you can feel that.

There are times when it becomes very frustrating for me to be here and I just want to escape. I feel sometimes that the world is suffocating me. I feel that the Darkside utilizes stuff to pull me out of my spiritual state of consciousness. So it comes up with greater ways to force it on me because I’m so resilient. I’ve built up such a resistance to having it pull me into the Doe; but we’re all at different levels. It is the terms of which you accept life. You have to love life. You have to look at it differently, and I’ll explain how.

This dimension is profound. It is extraordinary. Until you can realize how extraordinary and unique it is and what it can offer you, it will be vexing to you. You have to realize it for what it is. In this dimension, we can smell, taste, hear, and optically see. You can’t do these things in an energy body. You have other sensory.

You’ve existed probably hundreds of millions of light years away in some form of existence. It’s just that time is very different. You think,

“Well, why wouldn’t I be wiser?” It’s because your perception of time is very different. In a sense, you are young but you are old. It depends on how you want to perceive time. You can’t smell in the other dimension.

You can’t hear sound in the context that you hear it now. You can’t even see structure the way you see it now, in an energy format. You can’t taste.

You wouldn’t be able to hug or touch. There are other profound senses which are equivalent to these five senses as an energy being though.

You take for granted the five senses here in your life. You want to go back, but if you went back you will just wonder, “What was I thinking?”

You will realize that you made a great error in your haste to relieve yourself of your life on Earth.

Sometimes people come to visit people like me. When that happens, you have the opportunity to speak with me and ask questions about the things that you have always wanted to know. When you leave, you are going to want to kick yourself because your thoughts are going to be, “I was sitting in front of Eric Pepin. He’s an enlightened being. During that time, I saw him as a man and maybe for just a few moments, but I just wish I had done something more. I wish I had taken a great opportunity to do something more with it.”

There will always be “something more.” So you will feel even more regret when you leave this world because you hadn’t spent more time feeling the sand beneath your feet, observing the trees and the branches, or smelling the flowers. Maybe you’ll regret not spending enough time touching the face of your mother, or sitting and listening as she was speaking to you, talking about her normal daily activities, about life, and how much you miss it! Only when she is gone will you truly know what you are missing. That is what I often think of to remind myself how much I love this world. I need to savor it every minute whenever I long to be somewhere else.

I often think about the students that I’ve had in my life, how much I love them, and how much joy and appreciation they bring to me. I feel the passion that I have to teach other people in this dimension, to tell them about the other dimensions, and to awaken them so that they do not wish to escape from this reality. I don’t want you to escape. I want you to be whole. I want you to feel more complete and more comfortable doing what you need to be doing. You will return to where you long for soon enough.

It is those things that make me want to slow down and exist here. When I let my mind go too far in the dimensional spaces, I long to be there, but I have to remind myself to leave and come back here. No matter what happens in life, it is going to end. You are going to go back home when everything is finished. Why not resolve to savor the things in this dimension? Savor your life, savor the people, and savor your experiences –

– no matter if they are dark or not.

Have you ever had an experience in your life that was uncomfortable; perhaps a camping trip? You were uncomfortable and it was damp and cold. You spent the whole night laughing with your friends and you had a really good time. And now you miss it and you wish that you could go back to that moment? But at the same time, you were miserable when it happened. You will be unhappy many times in your life, but you will desperately want it again when you have departed. Hence, the reason we always come back again.

Are we reincarnating back here?

Not necessarily here, but in this dimension. While you are trying to experience more of the spiritual dimensions, don’t be in such a rush to push this physical dimension away. It’s alright to want to experience spiritually and to do those things, but don’t make it an irritation. Don’t make it into something that it is not.

Sometimes when you win, you really lose; and sometimes when you lose, you really win. Pull the little irritations that you have in life closer to you, instead of seeing them so negatively. When you pull them closer to you, you’ll move through them and you’ll find exactly what it is that you need to work through. Now, in some strange, other-dimensional way, it makes sense. Let me explain this differently.

At any given time, I know that I can take an ordinary environment and I can move this place. I can shift it. Even now at this very moment, I can shift the energy, the environment, and subtly move it into a higher dimensional frequency and we will all begin to move into it. Feel the shift slowly. I can make it very intense if I want, but it’s not something that we want to do right now.

Take the moment and accept it for what it is; and then move through it.

When you go into a haunted house, you could have the attitude of a realtor or a contractor. You could look at the old boards and the structure and think of what you can do with it. And if you have that attitude that is all you will ever see even if there are a million ghosts hopping, jumping, or flying throughout the whole place. None of it will exist for you.

If you go there as a spiritualist, you may not see the structure of the wood, the paint, the colors, or anything that’s not of interest to your consciousness. Your interest will be to feel the frequency, the dimension.

It’s like a dimming bulb: you turn that frequency or luminosity up, and those things become more relevant to you.

If you see life as a frustration, you must understand that behind every mechanism that affects you, there is a reason it was put there. There is a reason why it has been laid in front of you. You can see it as a thing that affects you or you can see it as a thing with something inside of it that you must escape from. It’s all a game. There is something to be gained from each person in your life, even a red cell, through either confrontations or experiences. Once you accept what you need to gain, and you accept it for what it is, you will no longer see it as a challenge. Then, all of a sudden, they will move out of your life. They will dissipate.

It’s the same thing with your work. If you find that your work is relocating you, simply ask, “Where do you want me to go? I’m happy to go.” Then once you do that, maybe you will find that you’re sitting on the stone right alongside Don Juan because he happens to live down the road from the place where you just moved. Or the mechanic that you are working with says, “You know, if it wasn’t for my spiritual, Yaqui Indian teachings, I wouldn’t be able to handle this job.” You will wonder, “What did he just say?”

You have to simply accept the situation for what it is. Do not fight the bull by its horns. Let it exhaust itself. Let it run through the cape. Be gentle. Be calm. Let it move with you. You are going to get frustrated. You will forget what you are saying now. It all sounds simple enough until you get into it. You will probably end up deciding how much you hate your life. Try to love it for one week and watch what happens. Watch the wonders that come from it.

If you want this place to become more spiritual, you have the ability to do that. Your intent is constantly on the ball. You’re constantly looking for enlightenment. You’re constantly looking for your way home. You’re constantly looking to complete yourself. You’re constantly looking for spirituality. You’re constantly looking for the answers.

Look for the answers. You don’t have to go to a mountain in Tibet to do that. The answers are sitting right in your home. The answers are sitting

in the people surrounding you. Just see them for what they are. As you deal with them, let your intention be to find whatever pearl you are supposed to find. You won’t be able to see that pearl because you only can see the work of a contractor that you need to do: the lines of the wood, the color of the paint, the structure, and the bones of the house. Look for the soul in them. Look for the soul wherever it is in the job. Look for it.

There’s an answer.

I’ve done everything from telemarketing to car sales, just like anybody else. The interesting thing about my life is that I’ve never seen my life as an act of doing. Of course, I thought, “I’ve got to go to this ridiculous red cell job and deal with Margaret and her doughnuts and whatever paperwork she wants to do,” but I always felt like I was James Bond. I always felt like I was incognito. Even though everyone knew that there was something unique about me, that there was something there, I didn’t let on. I just responded back to them like a normal person; incognito!

I always found that greater mysteries would find me because I always felt that there was a greater mystery to be found. It’s all about “looking for the windows in the house,” and then just waiting for them to show themselves. I can tolerate working through life by accepting that there will be something there and I just have to wait for it to be there. It always comes.

If I look at all of the things throughout my life, and all of the students I’ve found, most of them were from my work place. Or I found them by going to a very mundane place. I would bump into them; they would sense me, and I would sense them. Then something would happen. I might have to be there for three, four, or even five months before it happened. The Universe doesn’t set its clock by you. You set yourself to the Universe.

The sooner that you do, the faster things will happen. The more you resist it, the longer it will take. So, the slower you go, the faster you will go.

Remember that!