“Just go ahead and try,” I laugh, “try and steal me from him.”
I point as a huffing and puffing Xavier stands in the doorway. He is staring at our linked hands with barely veiled disgust. I smirk, willing to play a little game of my own.
“I thought you were gone for the day!” I exclaim, ripping my hands from his with so much force that I nearly spin, and rushing to him, “I’m so glad you’re back!” I give him one of his own bone-crushing hugs, and out of the corner of my eye, I see him slightly wince. “Act lovey-dovey,” I hiss in his ear whilst delving for a kiss on his neck. It burns when I touch him with my soft lips, tingling with passion that is about to break from its collar. Xavier is bewildered for a minute, then he joins in, his arms wrapping around my form. For a minute, there is no place I would rather be. I subconsciously close my eyes, drowning in his intoxicating aroma…
“I know you guys are faking,” Ian says confidently.
“What are you talking about?” I ask, pulling away from Xavier so I can see Ian’s smug face. The curtain is closed, and the critic isn’t satisfied.
He grins knowingly, “you don’t do anything that regular couples would. You’ve fooled the rest of the school, but not me. I see how you rip your hand from Xavier in the hallways. I know that you don’t love him.”
I look from Ian to Xavier, alarmed. I rush to him, hugging him tightly. I should become an actress.
“Why would you say that?” I rant, “that is so mean!” I shoot Ian a death glare, and for a moment, Ian seems unsettled. And for another second, in the safety of his warm hands, I am unsettled too.
Maybe I have been lying to myself all this time.
Away from the eyes of our audience, practically buried in each other’s arms, Xavier shoots me a wink. I roll my eyes, and the forbidden question flits out of my head like a stray thought, ready to return at a later date. A date I am definitely not waiting for.
“Okay then,” Ian shrugs, “if you hate me so much, then we can just be friends first.” He grins mischievously, “I know, sooner or later, you will be falling for my irresistible charm. I did save you, you know.”
“Save you?” Xavier asks suspiciously, narrowing his beautiful eyes, “from what?” The animal in him seems to rise, and for a second I spy the wolf in him, baring his teeth at the intruder.
Ian’s perfectly shaped mouth twists into a smirk. “Sidney, well, was having one of her bad days,” he hints, leading Xavier to the obvious. He turns to me, utmost concern carved in his features.
“What did she do to you?” he asks with probing eyes that look into my soul.
“Nothing,” I lower my eyes, ashamed that I couldn’t have taken care of it myself. Ashamed that once again, someone had to save me.
Anger builds up in him, clouding his handsome features. “Tell me.” For a second, I can sense his ancient, yet perfectly preserved mind, superior in almost every way as he speaks to Ian.
“Don’t get angry with him!” I yell, running between them, “I will tell you myself.”
My breaths are heavy as Xavier finally turns to me, the anger dissipated from his face. However, some bafflement is still in his expression. Why would I save Ian from his wrath? I don’t know for sure myself. “What happened, Mona?” he questions me softly, gently.
I am nearly choking the sentences out, for it is my failure. I do not want Ian to tell, for Xavier will kill him, whereas he will only be disappointed in me if my lips form the words. But I don’t want him to be disappointed. I want him to be proud.
“They bullied me,” I look to the floor, staring at the floor, “because I am different. Because you talk to me.” Silence sizzles through the air, thoughts lingering on the tip of my tongue. “Because suddenly I have everything they have ever wanted,” I whisper, concluding my insight. Xavier’s eyebrows rise slightly, and he chuckles.
“Jealousy, huh?” I stare at his face, contorted with amusement. He doesn’t even seem serious. “So what did they do to bully you?”
“They were about to cut her with a knife,” Ian cuts in; “they already slapped her and bruised her with their words.” I marvel over Ian’s thoughtful diction. They bruised me with words… nothing suits the impact better.
Xavier straightens, the laughter vanishing from him as quickly as a stray thought. “Sidney slapped Mona?” his words are full of caution and worry, “did she draw blood?”
“Of course she did,” Ian shrugs, “you know how she likes to wear a ton of rings.”
His face is now robotic. “How fast did it heal?”
“About thirty seconds,” I say quickly, “they called me a monster.” Memories rise in my mind, most of which I can barely bear to remember.
Xavier doesn’t even look at me, staring at Ian. “Mona, go home. Wes is checking you out. I will join you later.”
“What?” I stare at his deathly serious face with unrestrained worry. Suddenly it seems as if the happiness is sucked from the room, Xavier walking closer to Ian with measured footsteps.
“Go home,” he growls at me, and I literally jump back. I am not fond of this side of him… it is as if Xavier morphs into someone I do not know at times like this. Quickly I race out the door and into the hallway, bringing the door to a gentle halt behind me. The last glimpse I snag of them is when they are inches apart, Xavier demanding something from Ian with surprising force. What is he planning? Why did their discovery of my quick healing change his attitude so much?
I force myself to trust him, walking down the hallway slowly. Deep in thought, I wonder what exactly Xavier wanted to talk to Ian about. Everything seems so mysterious now, cloaked in secrecy.
Everything went through a complete and total change, a 180 degree turn of behavior in that extremely hot classroom. Why did he send me away?
A golden vision troops to meet me just as the bell rings, people coming out of the classrooms and almost completely stopping at the sight. Such beautiful, shiny gold hair… not one person has hair even close to that color in the entire school. Even Sidney’s voluptuous blond hair pales in comparison to this man.
I sigh as Wes waves at me, knowing exactly what will come next.
Great. Another round of whispers to pass among my classmates.
“Mona!” he calls, as if waving isn’t enough, “we have to go!” He finally reaches me, putting his handsome face near my ear. Shivers run up and down my arm as he touches my arm. “We captured the Shifter, and you need to get there to coax it out as soon as possible.”
People are edging closer to the rays of sunshine reflecting off his hair with eyes of wonder. Many more are staring at me with viciously envious eyes. They must be wondering why I am suddenly talking to all these beautiful guys.
I’m still wondering that too.
I allow Wes to drag me to the door, passing the tons of silent, staring people that would probably love to chop me in half right now. His hand feels so warm, but doesn’t burn me like Xavier’s touch does. They are both incredibly handsome, yet each of them feels so different.
Right before he whisks me outside, the door where I just exited swings open and two beautiful guys step out. One has dizzyingly blue eyes, while the other outshines him with eyes of emeralds and azure hair that glitters in the sunlight. Each move the blue-haired man makes is graceful and smooth, his body flawless. Some eyes are immediately magnetized to this new entrance.
Sidney appears in the hallway, walking as if she is about to faint. Cloudiness is in her eyes, and she almost stumbles down the walkway when she sees my face. However, she quickly turns from me and rights herself, heading to Ian as he waves her over. She transforms into the beauty queen she is right before our eyes, fluttering her eyelashes at Xavier as she starts to talk to him. And Xavier begins to truly talk back.
I can see the corner of his mouth turn up in a flirtatious smirk, watching the way he flipped his head back in a seductive laugh. Those actions used to be mine and mine only… why is he using them on Sidney? Strange, curious jealousy floods through me at the sight, and I quickly shake my head. I can’t be affected by Xavier. I don’t love someone like him, so it shouldn’t matter to me.
But then why does it hurt?
Wes practically drags me into the bright outdoors, my eyes unable to tear away from Xavier on their own. He smiles as I blink once, twice… trying to banish the image of him from my vision.
“Looks like someone is lovestruck…” Wes says laughingly, patting me on the shoulder, “I knew this would happen.”
“I don’t LOVE HIM!” I angrily punch Wes in the arm, and he jokingly staggers backwards.
“It’s okay, Mona,” he tries to comfort me, “you guys are fated to be together anyways. Why are you so opposed to the idea that you might be in love with him?”
I freeze, my mind hovering over that one question.
“Because I don’t like him,” I cross my arms, trying to hide my discomfort.
“Yes, you do,” he slings one handsome arm over my shoulder, “don’t lie to your best friend.”
“Who’s that?” I finally crack a smile, all the while pulling away from his friendly gesture. “I don’t have a best friend.”
“That hurts, Mona,” Wes holds his stomach as if I had stabbed him, “that hurts real bad.” He stumbles to the ground, groaning so strangely that it actually looks like he’s laughing…
I giggle along with him, pulling him up. We begin to walk again, this time a little more relaxed, my mind relieved of worrying about Xavier. Wes might as well be my best friend, because I have practically no one else. No girls want to talk to me, so many being envious, yet horrified over what they had seen today. A hole is in the pit of my stomach now as I realize I don’t have a single friend that is a girl.
Crawling onto Wes’s back, I hold on as he zooms into the forest. It is almost as if we disappear, only a whisper of reality as we whisk through the trees like a Shifter would. I feel weightless, as if I am flying as we travel. I will never forget this feeling… though it is not quite the same as the time when Xavier was the one beneath me. Whenever Xavier is the one carrying me, I can feel the pounding of his heartbeat, the warmness exploding between us like fire.
Suddenly we halt, and I find myself in the middle of a vast clearing in the forest. I soon recognize it to be the backyard at the mansion, one so large that it would easily swallow five football fields. The rich, enhanced air of the garden wafts to our nostrils, the sky clear and blue. I twist my head to look up at it, up at the sparse birds fluttering through the horizon like little, lost children.
But then, to contrast with the innocence, fiery hell was peering with eyes of red into my soul. This time the possessed one is a woman, beautiful and elegant with ebony hair and creamy white skin. However, she is writhing about in agony, and my heart suddenly aches for her. Just a few days before, I would have been jealous of her for being so beautiful. Now I know what a curse it can be.
Cuts stretch across her arms like veins, dark red blood oozing forth like lava from the depths of the earth. Both of them are being held down by Ray and Yi, her long nails scratching at their skin. It is quite strange to see, their arm constantly drawing forth blood then retreating as the wounds heal almost as quickly as they appear. But the pain is still there… every time she pierces their flesh, a wince comes forth on the corner of their lips. A smile stretches across her flushed cheeks, one corrupted by malice and mischief. Such a pretty monster.
I walk up to her, bending to look at her eyes closely. There is even more redness than the other boy I healed, so red that I am convinced she had been possessed for a very long time. “She was a bad one?” I ask them wonderingly.
“Terrible,” Wes groans, “She had already killed thirty people by the time we even reached her.”
“It might be better just to kill her,” Ray says softly, “she’s wanted everywhere. She will probably be on death row in a couple weeks.”
Anger builds up in me, combined with horror and pure disgust. “It’s not HER,” I say sharply, “it is the Shifter inside her. Why should we kill her for something that isn’t her fault?”
I lean over her, watching her form in the green grass. My finger trembles slightly as I place it on her forehead, shaking even more as I am immediately enveloped in voices. These voices are very weak and the boom of the overwhelming drum is drowning out everything. I can’t even hear her voice, only sense her tiny protest as it drowns in the depths of torture.
How can I help her, who is so lost?
Suddenly I feel a terrible pain in my hand, and I jerk it away. Red smears across the tip, a throb in my index finger growing. I gasp as I realize she had bitten me, a bit of her blood on the end of her tooth. She is staring at me with real hate, a cackle emitting from her lips. Quickly I wipe my hand on my shirt and with a newfound determination, plop my entire hand on her forehead. I will not lose to this.
I search for the presence, amplifying her with all my might. All my strength, all my hope is poured into her, trying to help the one oppressed. Funny how the one hateful action fuels my drive towards the Shifter’s demise.
A pair of hands seize me right before I fall into the darkness, no energy left. The draining of my force ceases, and I land into a warm embrace. Almost immediately the energy returns, fulfilled as peace comes. Quickly my eyes fly open, and I find myself to be near Wes, his eyes of concern. “You did it again,” he smiles weakly, “she is saved.”
I cannot move, for if I do, I will faint. Everything right now seems so dark, so weary. I hate this feeling I have right after helping the monsters, the feeling of complete and total helplessness. I always, at times like this, see my father with his eyes of red stare into my soul, cackling as he stabs a knife into my heart.
Reality dances a little further, a hairsbreadth away from my grasp. Everything becomes woozy, and I become aware that this is the end. Sleep has come to take me, and the death is on its heels. My father is chuckling as the blood seeps from my wound. This is what I get for trying to fight against the Shifters. I am too weak…
Maybe it would be best to close my eyes for a while.
***
“Mona,” a voice whispers, on the edge of my almost nonexistent thoughts. I am floating, suspended in time. For now, I am dead. Dead to my hopes, dead to my troubles, dead to reality.
A hand shakes my arm. “Please wake up, Mona.” The voice serves as a fishing rod, reeling me to surface no matter how much I want to lay beneath the murky waters. I cough and sputter, unwilling to revive myself. Being dead is so peaceful.
“W-what?” I groan, my eyes cracking open. The first thing I see is a clear, white ceiling. Then, there is a face. “Jake?” I wonder, spotting the crystal hair and the light skin.
“Yep, that’s me,” he grins with a vibrant smile someone could only describe as perfect.
No one else is around me, only the soft breeze and velvet covers. I peer up at his face as he continues to talk, obviously unwilling to surrender me to the void once more. “Xavier was here, but he had to go to his room to get ready for something about thirty minutes ago,” he chatters, “we are all sort of used to you fainting by now. This one was pretty bad, about three hours. It is almost six o’ clock already.”
“Three hours?” I shake myself free of the suffocating chains, “usually it is around thirty minutes!” She must have sucked every ounce of energy I had. Anger flashes through my head at the thought that the beautiful woman took three hours of my life. Not that it matters anyway. I’m… immortal now, I suppose.
It is rather hard to believe, that I will be stuck with them forever. At first it sounded appealing, but now the thought of not living out the rest of my life seems dull and boring. It is as if we took a video tape, pressed pause on a certain scene, and threw away the remote. I never should have agreed… and I wouldn’t have if not for my parents. But now it doesn’t matter so much. It isn’t like banishing these Shifters are helping my parents come back to life. However, it gives me a good feeling, as if my life is actually worth something. Although what I am now living isn’t true life.
“Wes is taking her to a nearby airport to send her to Europe. Apparently she knows some French, and we found a passport in her wallet. Anywhere right now is better than America,” he smiles slightly.
“Did she remember what she had done?” I question. He shakes his head.
“When the Shifter left, so did her memory. Just like the last few.”
A sad, defeated feeling enters my chest. Shifters are so mean… just waltzing in and ruining people’s lives for fun. Look at how they ruined me. I am who I am because of them.
Is that a good thing, or a bad thing?
I sit up, watching Jake stare out the window. He is alight with wonder, seeing the leaves shake off the trees and dance in the nighttime wind. They are swirling, twisting and diving, dipping and weaving, waltzing in the sky. I turn to look at them also, my small, red lips parting in a smile. The sun is hanging just over the ground, so close that they are barely an inch apart. The orange and purple are just beginning to spread across the horizon, and the garden flowers are shining like jewels in the light.
Then, I turn and peer at my own skin in its radiant beauty, creamy skin without a flaw. My hands are slender and smooth, along with my feet. I slide off the bed, walking to a mirror. For a minute, I watch my body in all its elegance, its perfection.
I hate this body, for it has brought me much sorrow. Beauty has a terrible, terrible price.
“Mona, are you okay?” Jake comes to stand beside me, placing a hand on my shoulder. He must have spied the small, almost invisible tear brimming in my eyes.
“Yes, I’m fine,” I bluff, slowly pushing him away, “never been better.”
“That’s a lie,” he says softly. There is a pause while I just stare at myself. Trying to believe the person in the mirror is truly me. After a few more seconds, Jake can’t take it. “Go talk to Xavier about it,” he points towards the doorway.
Maybe that would be best. After a moment of contemplating, I edge out of the room, heading towards Xavier’s chamber slowly. My vision is still shaking, wobbly as I stumble over to the door. I think back to the school, when Xavier was talking to Sidney. Jealousy strikes like lightning, and I quickly shake my head. I don’t want to remember. I don’t want that green envy to blossom within me until there is no containing it.
I knock on the door, feeling the carpet beneath my feet crinkle slightly.
“Who’s there?” Xavier opens the door slowly, looking out at me. Immediately his icy cold green eyes scan me, as if I am only a parcel. He seems tired, his handsomeness rugged. Slight circles are beneath his eyes, and he is wearing a t-shirt and jeans. I detect strong cologne that nearly makes my eyes water, mixed with that attractive scent that is on him naturally.
“What’s with that cologne?” I walk into the room, trying to find the bottle it came from, “it is so strong!” Not that it doesn’t smell good, but its presence is suffocating.
Xavier chuckles, immediately spiking my interest. “We both have strong senses of smell,” he smiles, “but regular people don’t.”
He feels so cold to me right now. Why is that?
“But there are no regular people here,” I point out the obvious, “only werewolves and… me.”
There is a brief silence as Xavier checks his watch. “Oops, got to go,” he says, “I’m going to be late.” He shoots me a brief smile, and before I can protest, lands a kiss on my forehead. Then he starts walking out of the room, inciting my anger.
“Where are you going?!” I yell after him, but no response follows. Running into the hallway, I race to the garage. He is sliding into a car, the Mercedes that is used to impress people. Why is he driving? And why not one of the cheaper cars?
Is he going back to that stupid club he said he would stop visiting?
I jog to the front door, and zip into the wild underbrush. Tailing the car, I follow it perfectly. Yi has been teaching me stealth techniques, and I have gotten pretty good at it. My heartbeat pounds furiously in my chest. Why can’t Xavier tell me what he is doing?
I begin to question my own actions. Why am I acting like the jealous girlfriend? Not that I am his girlfriend. Not at all.
I wonder briefly why I am such a good liar to myself.
The forest ends, and the houses begin. I find it a little trickier to maneuver through the scenery and behind the car. The car is easier to spot than most, with it being a strikingly red color. However, it must be incredibly easy for him to see me, wearing a light blue shirt, dark jeans and is running like crazy.
Quickly I duck behind a bush as the car suddenly halts. Xavier probably caught sight of me, and was wondering if the figure was really me, or a ghost. There is a few more seconds, and then the car starts again. I creep along, trying to let the car get as far ahead as possible without losing it.
I almost trip over a branch, scraping my foot slightly as I stumble along. The blood comes forth, and then disappears completely as the wound heals. With the fast recovery comes remembrance, and I recall Sidney’s deathly sharp nails as they scraped across my cheek…