Aquarius North Node people have had too many lifetimes of
being the center-stage star and having constant public attention, so
in this incarnation part of them resists being in that position. Fear of
not playing their role correctly and inviting disapproval is a great
emotional risk, and now they, are generally not rewarded when they
take the “star” position.
In this lifetime the enthusiastic applause of others does not
nurture these folks. But they are great audience members,
supporting others in taking center stage. Their natural enthusiasm
evokes excitement from the rest of the audience. In this way, they
give back the energy of approval to others and remain free to be
themselves.
If they can’t avoid being the center of attention, their best bet is
to shift the focus to something outside themselves. For example, if
Aquarius North Node is a public speaker, he could focus the
audience’s attention on the topic. If he wins approval for his
principles or projects rather than seeking it only for himself, his
enthusiasm becomes boundless and he has tremendous creative
power. Approval is like food for Aquarius North Node people.
Conversely, their fear of disapproval may be so enormous that they
avoid sharing their true opinions or feelings.
In past lives, Aquarius North Node people were VIPs who had to
spout the conventional line—that was part of their job. However, in
this incarnation they are here to share unconventional knowledge,
and they may not always get approval because they are voicing
something new. People seldom accept new knowledge easily
because it takes time to see its value, come into alignment with it,
and integrate it. These folks need to be willing to risk disapproval in
voicing their innovative ideas. They must allow themselves to feel
the empowerment of their own self-approval.
When they see themselves as channels for knowledge to flow
through, it frees them enormously because they don’t have to be
“right.” It also frees them from the vulnerability of needing
approval from others. When they realize that they’re just “picking
up” free-floating ideas and bringing them through, then whether
other people approve or not isn’t a factor.
When these folks are in group situations, very often they have
excellent ideas that others accept with enthusiasm. An idea comes
to fruition and no one remembers that it was Aquarius North Node’s
idea. These folks may have delusions of grandeur, but when they
keep a low profile they reach their greatest potential and have the
most success.
Not waiting for applause keeps them unencumbered to go on to
the next, great thing. When they receive a lot of attention, it blocks
their access to new ideas. Thus, their fate is to work behind the
scenes and with others to make things happen. Then, if fame should
come to them, they can accept it in a balanced way and not take it
personally.
These folks want everyone to like them—it’s the motive behind
much of what they do. If they do something and don’t get
validation, they have a hard time dealing with it. Because of pastlife experiences, they subconsciously use approval from others as a
barometer of whether they are on track and doing a good job. On
one level, Aquarius North Node people are still burdened by
thinking they have to “live up to” an image. Although in this
lifetime they rebel against that restriction, they are so accustomed to
sacrificing their real selves to perform a “role” and earn approval
that they all too easily behave in ways they feel are expected—
contrary to their own hearts.
Their desire for approval often causes them tremendous inner
conflict. They are so aware of others’ responses to them that they
often manipulate their image in the others’ eyes. They don’t
respond naturally to the flow of events because they want to say
exactly the “right thing” to win approval.
But by focusing so much on themselves, they inadvertently
deplete their natural self-confidence. If they continually worry
about how they appear to others and need a certain amount of
approval to be happy, the balance is very fragile. They are under
constant pressure to present an image they think is required for the
positive feedback they think they need.
These folks are much better off when they respond authentically
from who they really are—and then see how the other person
responds and whether or not they approve of the other person.
When they interact honestly with another person, the other’s
response will show them whether they want to spend time with that
person. This is a stronger, healthier position for the Aquarius North
Node person.